of Didiey Zakaria

11

2012-02-11T05:57:00.003+08:00

cik hati, tolong jadi budak baik boleh? dok diam-diam je. nanti kita cakap heart-to-heart k. sekarang i busy, sabar ye? :")

Allah, dugaan jenis lain pulak datang. kena kuattt. Astaghfirullah :(

p/s : ekzenggg seninggg! doakan!

7

2012-02-07T21:52:00.006+08:00

last usrah was a little different since Kak Farah wasn't there and we got a "kakak usrah angkat", Kak Fin. Kak Fin is adorable and she's married! *heh selalu excited dengan senior yang da kahwin* but i miss Kak Farah, let's pray for her recovery :(

oh, nak share satu cerita.

yesterday was a tiringg day, lately selalu penat sebab banyak benda nak kena buat. eh, tapi sekarang cuti? oh ya lupa cakap kitorang sekarang study week, Isnin depan akan start exam. cuak, kot? tapi sebab fikir Allah kan adaaa rasa cuak hilang sikit hewhewhew. i was tired, by 9 dah tidur and set alarm pukul 12. poyo gila, tak mungkin la akan bangun pukul 12 kan *last-last bangun pukul 2 pagi boo* -,- bangun je tidur ada orang cakap "eh tahu tak ada rumah terbakar..." over.

bukan terbakar, tapi ada kek terbakar. but the unfortunate thing is, all of the house members were asleep and Allah je tahu for how long they sleep with those bad gases *carbon monoxide, sulfur oxide yada yadaaa*. tapi Allah baik, Dia gerakkan hati salah seorang untuk bangun dan kejukan yang lain. nasib baik semua sempat bangun dan keluar rumah cepat-cepat, kalau tak..?

nak dijadikan cerita kitorang tengah belajar module respiratory tract, tahu apa carbon monoxide boleh buat? CO is a bad bad gas, diorang akan fight oxygen untuk bind dengan red blood cells (RBC) and they have 1000 times affinity toward RBC! sekarang cuba fikir apa consequence kalau RBC tak boleh bind dengan oxygen? ya, badan tak dapat oxygen. might lead to death. scary T__T

what happened last night make us thinking, macam mana kalau..? payah kan nak sebut perkataan m***. padahal m*** tu pasti. takut.. takut nak kena berhadapan dengan malaikat maut, takut nak jawab soalan-soalan dalam kubur kelak, takut kalau kubur gelap dan ada binatang-binatang geli *nauzubillah* dan yang paling takut, apa nak jawab dengan Allah nanti kalau Allah tanya "apa amalan kamu yang kamu rasa kamu layak masuk syurga?" ternganga nak jawab.

"Tetapi hanya Allah lah pelindungmu,dan Dia penolong yg terbaik " (3:150)

Alhamdulillah semua selamat, sekarang ada misi nak dilaksanakan minggu depan :) fightingg!

HURRY

2012-02-03T03:32:00.002+08:00

got two pending #WS and one pending wedding story but i'm either too busy or too lazy. mid semester exam's a week away, have to work very hard.. will update later, HAVE TO sebenarnya sebab i've promised to share some things that i've learnt in usrah rite?

bai!

random things that make me happy :D

2012-01-25T23:38:00.004+08:00

1. i've made the second rainbow cakeee! fine, last time sebenarnya i buat guna ready mixed dough, what i have to do masuk dua bijik telur letak air sikit zrrr guna mixer mix semua benda huehuehueee poyo je kan nak bangga siap letak gambar kat blog tapi sebenarnya ...? boo T___T but THIS TIME I'VE MADE EVERYTHINGG from the basic, tepung telur air yada yadaaa tsk tsk nak menangis lepas siap sebab rasa sebijik macam yang first time buat :3

and i made the chocolate topping too, thanks to Azrin for the recipe!

tiga layers je sebab the fourth layer was rentung -,-

tapi sukaaa :')

2. forced Ama to wear pink "short dress" on ... *can't remember on what day*. we looked similar! i even wore the white cardigan i have never worn to match with Ama's! most of the days Ama would wear pink and cute dresses haha, some people are cute that way :)

3. Toby's stretching and showing off his big belly and some curly fur at the belly! he's so pemalas...

4. wearing the birthday shawl from Mel! yes, my pipi are bulging -,-

5. Kak Farah and Kak Jaja have been discharged (from the hospital)! loooong story, i'll tell you one day. not now, got so many things to do. bai! :)

WS #4

2012-01-19T23:50:00.003+08:00

i know it's Thursday already but i haven't shared anything on what i've learned in last usrah. i've been so busy but sharing is a must and i have to do what i have to do *tak ada kaitan*. baik lah, kita mulakan majlis kita dengan.. eh perlu ke? :3

apa tujuan kita diciptakan? eh, belum sempat share apa-apa dah bagi soalan? macam masa seminar Pathology, sebelum seminar start lecturer akan pass "pre-test" dia bagi soalan berkaitan dengan tajuk seminar dan semua kena jawab, siapa tak tahu tinggal kosong je tapi kena tulis matrix number. ya, terasa benar bodohnya sebab memang takkan la kan nak baca sebelum seminar huehue. back to main story, please -,-

sebenarnya ada DUA sebab Allah ciptakan manusia. pertama, ibadat (52:56). ya, memang kita dilahirkan semata-mata untuk beribadat dan tunduk kepada Allah. maknanya kena solat setiap masa ke? sekarang cuba define "ibadat"? ibadat bukan bermaksud solat semata-mata tapi semua benda yang kita buat hari-hari sebenarnya ibadat, yang penting NIAT :) ingat tak hadis yang kita belajar kat sekolah dulu, dalam hadis tu cakap kalau niat kamu berhijrah untuk berkahwin maka dapatlah kamu seorang isteri.. eh bab kahwin je ingat huehue. the true meaning of the hadis is whatever you do depends on your NIAT. belajar, tidur, main, online (eh) semua niat kerana Allah. nanti dapat pahala! :D

cakap pasal online kan, hari itu ada seorang kakak pernah cakap (rasanya bukak Kak Farah tapi tak kisah la siapa yang cakap), kamu online Facebook 24 jam nanti kat akhirat Allah tanya apa yang kamu buat sepanjang online tu? ada manfaat kepada manusia lain ke? huehue dulu selalu buat status emo-emo nak merajuk la itu la ini la bila fikir balik ya Allah segannya bagitahu aib sendiri kat semua orang.. kan lagi manis bila guna Facebook sebagai tempat sharing, lagiiii seronok.

eh, jauhnya menyimpang.

sebab kedua Allah cipta manusia ada dalam ayat (33:72). Allah cakap "Sesungguhnya Kami telah menawarkan amanat kepada langit, bumi dan gunung-ganang; tetapi semuanya enggan untuk memikul amanat itu dan mereka khawatir tidak akan melaksanakannya (berat), lalu dipikullah amanat itu oleh manusia...". cuba bayangkan, langit yang seluas-luas alam ni pun tak nak jadi khalifah sebab tak mampu katanya. kita hebat sangat ke sampai boleh terima tanggungjawab ni? actually, yes. Allah dah angkat darjat manusia setinggi-tingginya dan bagi kita the chance to manage alam. bila Allah tanya apa yang kita yang kononnya khalifah ni, apa yang dah kita buat? agak-agak boleh jawab tak dengan Allah nanti? T___T

banyaknya khilaf kita sebagai manusia :(

sebenarnya Allah tahu kita sabagai manusia kadang-kadang (macam selalu) lupa apa tujuan kita dicipta. sebab tu Allah cakap dalam surah 'Abasa (23 dan beberapa ayat seterusnya), muhasabah diri sendiri. tengok makanan kamu, mana datang makanan kamu macam mana Allah turunkan hujan untuk menyuburkan makanan.. too much to list, read it for yourself and muhasabah.

it's never too late to regret and change for the better :)

Kak Farah tanya, nanti kamu nak masuk syurga dengan siapa? eh, boleh pilih ya dengan siapa kita boleh masuk syurga? mesti la nak Umi, Abah, Ana dan Ira masuk syurga sama-sama dengan i, oh Toby sekali! huehue. WHAT ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS? tak pernah terfikir, serius. manusia kan memang selfish, masa senang nak ada kawan gelak sama-sama. nanti kat syurga tak ada kawan sedihnya nanti nak share nikmat Allah dengan siapa? macam nabi Adam sorang-sorang dalam syurga, Allah kesiankan dia dan cipta Hawa untuk jadi peneman. kita?

kalau nak masuk syurga sama-sama dengan kawan-kawan yang kita sayang, kena la paksa (eh macam kasar pulak) semua orang "jom pergi surau!" tak pun, "eh kau jadi imam hari ni" *terus iqamat sebab tak nak jadi imam haha*. kalau yang jauh di mata (dekat di hati) macam mana? Facebook kan ada! share videos, quotes, ayat-ayat al-Quran, hadis.. dengan harapan our friends will gain something from what we've shared and insyaAllah, jumpa di syurga ya? :')

kbaiiiii, assalamualaikum!

hewhewhew

2012-01-16T23:41:00.004+08:00

"madam loves to smile"

"huh? who? me?"

"yeah, you. you always smile, you smile makes people feel loved"

*awkward smile*

okay, i don't know whether it's a good thing or not. but it feels awkward, kang tak pasal dia ingat i suka senyum kat dia?! omaigawd AWKWARD....... what makes it more awkward is, he's a young man umur lebih kurang kalau orang tua mungkin akan rasa biasa, atau happy sebab kena puji -,-

p/s : tempe's English, please take note.

p/s/s : baru perasan my entries selalunya pendek gila baru nak feeling baca EH DAH HABIS?! busy la, serius banyak kerja nak siapkan and nak revise lagi *semua dah lupaaa panggg* kbai

WS #3

2012-01-12T23:34:00.003+08:00

"...sungguh, (ajaran-ajaran Allah) itu suatu peringatan, maka barang siapa menghendaki, tentulah dia akan memerhatikannya" (80:11-12)

if you really, really wants to know Allah better but you're clueless; what should i do? Allah kan ada.. as long as you heart longs for Him, He'll show you the right path :)

betulkan niat, insyaallah.

came across this picture.

it gave me goosebumps. how true is that?

:')

made my day :D

2012-01-11T01:10:00.003+08:00

this video made me smile for the whole day, though i can only see a hand moving and some jumping notes huehuehuehue. too bad i can't upload this video here, not sure why. it's good enough i posted a picture! *grin*

20

2012-01-08T20:42:00.012+08:00

OH YES I'M TWENTY BABYYY HAHA okay tak payah buat caps lock pun
sebenarnya -,- alhamdulillah :)

actually i have a lot to tell, about the surprises, the gifts and what do i feel about being 20. but i've been so malas (macam biasa) whenever i think of updating, i rather waste my time scrolling down Facebook's homepage. now where should i start? o_O

it was Friday and i had classes as usual. the morning started off with everyone singing Happy Birthday Didiey and Jojo in chorus, oh didn't i tell you? Alif and i share the same birthdays :) i did tell, actually. everyone was so nice and i didn't know how to react when they started singing haha, i must looked so silly grinning like a little kid :')

as the classes ended, everyone (well, most of them) were excited nak tahu where we would celebrate. it was a little awkward since Alif and i.. we're...hm i don't know how to say it and it's a long story anyway. but to make it short, we didn't celebrate our birthdays together. just swapping gifts and teasing each other how old we've become haha. thank YOU though :) it's weird now that some things are different but changes are good, man.

anyway, the day went on like usual and i was busy replying all the sweet wishes on Facebook. before Facebook existed we actually wish someone Happy Birthday through text messages and i personally think it is even more meaningful. and i hate it when people simply post "hb" on your wall like tak ikhlas langsung i don't need you "hb" anyway -,- that's the reason i hide my birthday on Facebook because i don't want these "hb" people ruin my big day. eh, am i that arrogant? T___T

panjang gila intro?! sebenarnya nak cerita what happened that night. kebetulan usrah buat kat rumah i (turn Mira masak and i helped a bit), everyone was so sweeeeet Syak brought an awesome chocolate pie, Farahi and Raiyan brought homemade lasagne, Kak Farah herself cooked me my favourite Kuewtiau (tak pandai eja) Kungfu wooott and the best part is Mira made me kek batik! :D i was actually surprised sebab fine, memang la i fikir mesti kak Farah would bring something for me HAHAHA tapi tak sangka the others pun had something for me, sweet kan kawan-kawan sayaaa :')

i have a picture but i'm too lazy to share haha excuse me for being so lazy :D

the next day (yes, the surprise thingy went on until the day after my birthday hihiii) Mira and Linda decided to go shopping and "let's grab some lunch at MG Road", which was a little weird because i thought Mira was busy saving for her Korea trip? tapi i ikut je la, it would be nice to go out just the three of us anyway. during the outing Linda was so busy with her phone i was like "WHY IS EVERYBODY CALLING YOU BUT NOT MEEE" haha dengki gila -,-

lepas habis shopping semua and we were on our way to MG Road so i asked them casually where are we heading. Mira made a face and said Nando's. haha they both hate Nando's simply because Linda doesn't eat chicken and Mira doesn't like the sauce. but i love it, and paksa everyone to go to Nando's every now and then :p anyway i was baik enough to offer them "jom pergi makan tempat lain i won't mind" but the made those stern faces and said it's okay because it's your birthday. dalam hati i eh semalam kot birthday but i said nothing because i was glad haha Nando's at last!

sampai je Nando's we headed upstairs and PELIK GILA KENAPA HARI NI TIBA-TIBA SEMUA ORANG NAK MAKAN NANDO'S sebab i saw my other girl friends. i was so excited "heiii korangg kenapa semua orang kat siniii" and diorang casually said "surprise!", i tak percaya kot i asked them several times betul ke surprise haha. muka diorang tak enthusiastic langsung okay haha rupa-rupanya we were late and they were bored and they already eaten their lunch haha! i said "kalau korang cakap awal-awal nak buat surprise tak ada la kitorang datang lambat" ?_?

then come another surprise! Intan, Alya, Mia and Nisa came with a chocolate cake! that was sweeeet i nearly cried. i boleh agak la kan there must be a cake (haha) but i didn't cross my mind they would bring a homemade cake :')

i don't know how to say this but you guys were (and still are) so sweet i can't think you enough. on the evening of 6th i actually thought no one would care about my birthday because i'm nobody (drama).. sebab tu sangat happy :)

there you go, that's how i look like now that i'm 20 *straight face*.

haa kang dah tulis panjang-panjang siapa suruh complain i malas update blog? huehuehue oh, ada pending WS! alamak malasnya.. eh, nak share pun malas ke? cuba fikir berapa banyak pahala Allah bagi nanti *terus rajin EH TAPI BUKAN HARI NI LA KAN* haha okay bai!

:B

2012-01-03T01:03:00.002+08:00

“Beruntunglah orang yang hari ini lebih baik dari semalam, terpedayalah orang yang hari ini sama seperti semalam, dan celakalah orang yang hari ini lebih buruk dari semalam. yang paling jauh, bukannya bintang, mentari pun bukan jua rembulan tetapi adalah masa yang berlalu dan tidak akan kembali..kelmarin yang luput menjadi secancang kenangan, semalam yang terluput mengukir sesalan.. yang ada hanya hari ini & akan datang. gunakanlah hari ini dengan sebaik mungkin kerana esok belum tentu milik kita, sedangkan semalam telah pergi buat selamanya..”

got the point, Kak Farah. thank you. and thank you Allah :D

p/s : some of the words are not very familiar. rembulan? it's moon right? haha

too lazy to recap but made a conclusion

2012-01-01T02:39:00.002+08:00

2011 is the best year so far! 2012, try beating 2011 huehuehuehue. Alhamdulillah :D

WS #2

2011-12-31T12:24:00.003+08:00

went to usrah last night, this time at Linda's house. she made the best nasi lemak ever! ish, nak pergi belajar ke nak makan?! hehe biasa la, lepas belajar mesti lapar :p

semalam Kak Farah said she wanted to discuss about something else rather than learning the module. since yesterday's was the last usrah for 2011 (haha walhal 2012 dua tiga hari je lagi saja nak dramatik) she wanted us to go back and reflect what have we done throughout the year. is there any change in terms of iman? ibadat? naik ke? turun ke? it was a tough question though. it's hard to go back and remember all the mistakes you have done. rasa malu lagi banyak dari rasa bangga..

Kak Farah asked, why do Muslims disobey Allah? there are three reasons (that i never thought of). satu, tak yakin kepada Allah. dua, tak yakin dengan hari pembalasan dan tiga, cinta kepada diri sendiri dan mengabaikan orang lain.

eh, kita kan Muslim mesti la kita percaya dan tahu akan kewujudan Allah? PERCAYA dan YAKIN tak sama sebenarnya.. ada satu analogi, contohnya kalau tiba-tiba cikgu cakap minggu depan ada exam. kita semua mesti la kan nak belajar betul-betul at least tak nak fail kan. cuba kalau cikgu cakap nanti akan ada exam tapi tak sure lagi bila so what would you do? "alaa lambat lagi pun, entah-entah tak jadi nanti bila dah confirm la baru belajar betul-betul.." see the difference? :)

sebab kita tak nampak Allah dan kita tahu, tapi tak betul-betul yakin bila dan macam mana hari pembalasan kelak sebab tu kita berani buat benda yang Allah larang. kalau dulu-dulu selalu kita dengar (dalam al-Quran) ada cerita Allah bagi pembalasan secara "cash" kat dunia haa, cuba kalau Allah buat macam tu kepada kita kalau kita buat dosa. takut kan? T__T

siapa antara kawan-kawan kita yang paling sayang kita? jyeah, those friends who guide us to Allah. kawan-kawan yang selalu ajak jemaah sama-sama, yang berani cakap "kenapa kau pakai tudung singkat sangat?" dan yang ikhlas masakkan (contoh) untuk kita.

it's not easy though. hm, semua benda pun tak senang sebenarnya. tapi kena berusaha untuk senangkan semua benda, eh faham tak? -,-

oh satu lagi! selalu orang cakap "aku tak dapat hidayah lagi la, tunggu aku dapat hidayah baru aku pergi solat jemaah kat surau". eh, tak betul okay! kadang-kadang Allah dah bagi nah hidayah untuk kau, tapi Allah nak kita berusaha. dia nak kita yang cari mana hidayah yang Dia bagi tu. berusaha in terms of, kalau malas pergi surau contohnya pergi cari kawan yang boleh temankan. berusaha la tu namanya. kak Farah cakap jangan sampai Allah bosan dan tak nak dah kasi hidayah kat kita! T__T

hmm apa lagi ya? itu je la kot yang paling tersentuh kat hati (banyak lagi sebenarnya tapi bila banyak sangat nak tulis takut mesej tak sampai). oh, esok dah tahun baru! peluang untuk jadi lebih baik, mungkin? ;)

kbye!

dislikeee

2011-12-31T01:32:00.002+08:00

i don't like to have someone who got the same name as i am. yeah, tak suka. ridiculous kan? not that i can control people's names. tapi serius tak suka, i feel awkward gilaaa and i will never be able to get close with those people. don't blame me, i'm just arrogant that way T__T

kbye.

rainbow cake

2011-12-30T20:40:00.007+08:00

it was months ago, i decided to bake a rainbow cake. it's basically a sponge cake with lots of colours. cantik! at first the idea to bake this cake is forgotten because i didn't have an oven, but since i purchased one from a senior (rasanya pernah cerita dalam blog) the burning desire (haha) to bake this cake is overwhelming so yesterday i baked one for Mira's surprise birthday party.

but i was overconfident and over-imaginative, the icing was a major failure *nangis*. i used two recipes and i failed both?! Kak Mier said i have to mix the white egg at least 20-30 minutes (?) for it to become very light and very frothy. i was impatient, of course. it's such a waste of time to mix and wait for half an hour for the icing heh, so not me haha.

since there's no icing and i was so upset sebab tak jadi, i used Hershey's chocolate as "glue" to stick three layers of the cake. eh, jadi pulak? hehe. but the presentation was really bad but Alhamdulillah everyone enjoyed it and wanted for more! too bad i baked one cake for 15 (or so) people haha.

mission accomplished! :')

must try again one day.

oh, HB Mira! it's so sweet to see everyone is so excited to celebrate birthdays :)

lagi 30 minit i ada usrah and i promised Najwa to bake apple crumble for her, in return she will bake kek batik for me yeay! i love kek batik tapi tak pernah buat so i assume i tak pandai buat so tak pernah cuba, eh faham tak? haha. lagipun, it's so pathetic to bake a cake for yourself T__T usually when i bake a cake, i'll eat a slice or two the rest semua orang lain habiskan -,- but i don't mind :)

kbye nak pergi usrah!

p/s : Hajar cakap kek macam Play-doh. grr.

WS#1

2011-12-25T23:24:00.005+08:00

i've been joining Usrah for more than a year now (kot?) and since October this year, it's become a routine for me and my other "sisters" to attend Usrah every weekend. now i'm thinking, the Prophet said each one of us should spread His words even for ONE word. since i have a blog with 100+ followers (hehe) i should share with you readers what i've learned every week! sweet kan Allah sebab bagi ilham untuk i buat WS! eh, WS tu apa? WS stands for Weekly Sharing and insyaallah there would be a WS for each week. ALAMAK, RAJIN KE I NAK UPDATE BLOG TIAP-TIAP MINGGU? doakan, hehe.

before i get started, i want to clear some things. ehem. i'm not the most religious girl pakai biasa-biasa ilmu pun tak tinggi sangat bercakap tak pandai sangat apatah lagi nak dakwah-dakwah bagai ada boyfriend pulak tu, but don't judge me by my blog.. i'm a Muslim but not the perfect one. but i'm trying to become better each day, kata nak pergi syurga kena la jadi Muslim baik dan Allah sayang :D jom!

today Kak Farah asked, pernah rasa cinta Allah? kitorang macam keliru sikit, apa maksud "rasa cinta Allah"? one of us explained, it's the warm feeling you feel inside because Allah has given you so many things (nikmat) hari-hari dia boleh rasa cinta Allah.

cuba fikir, kenapa kita tak rasa cinta Allah sedangkan Allah dah bagi banyak sangat nikmat? hati kita gelap ke? hmph, kalau 24 jam online Facebook mana sempat nak bersyukur nikmat penglihatan yang Allah bagi. Kak Farah cakap, kalau orang yang tak pernah rasa cinta Allah, sakit. bukan sakit secara fizikal yang boleh baik kalau rajin makan ubat tapi hati yang sakit. a sick heart. takutnya, macam mana nak sembuhkan hati yang sakit? hati kat mana pun kita tak tahu, hati tu jantung (heart) ke? atau hati (liver) ke?

to treat a sick heart, turn to Allah. Allah kan ada, memang la tak nampak tapi doa je banyak-banyak Allah akan dengar.. Allah is the one that creates every part of your body and He knows you best! mesti Allah ada ubat untuk hati kita yang sakit :) kita tak pernah terlambat untuk raih cinta Allah. cuma kadang-kadang terleka kan? eh, terasa T__T

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bertakwalah kepada Allah dan carilah wasilah (jalan) untuk mendekatkan diri kepada-Nya dan berjihadlah (berjuanglah) di jalan-Nya agar kamu beruntung" (al-Maidah ayat 35)

hmm, tak tahu la sampai ke tak apa yang i cuba share. tak pandai sangat la nak cerita.. banyak lagi sebenarnya tapi ini yang paling terkesan di hati. harap-harap sampai la ye apa yang i cuba nak cakap?

drowsy

2011-12-22T20:21:00.005+08:00

i used to be so rajin writing down my thoughts and silly emotions. since i rarely do so now, does it mean that i'm a grown up now? huehue, not. second year is a busy year and i have lotsaaa homework to do but i'm not in the mood. eh, boleh ke macam tu? rasa hebat jadi "top scorer" terus malas nak belajar?! TAK, OKAY. i'm just so lazy, all i want to do is watch tv and eat a lot of ice cream and enjoy the cool weather.. macam mana ni, kerja banyak tak siap kottt *pangg diri sendiri* -,-

it was 15 degree this morning! okay fine, tak ada la salji bagai but i was cold enough to force me to sleep after Subuh huehue. i dah cakap belum i really like school now? because the classes are not too packed and there are times for me to take a break from all those lectures. too bad we are given only half an hour break for lunch and Zohor -,-

i usually spend the whole half an hour in surau, biasa la i memang lambat sikit bab-bab nak bersiap ni. for lunch, i would bring something from home. i don't eat nasi for lunch because Alif and i are supposed to be dieting now haha (tadi baru makan megiii) so everyday we would eat some bread and sausages, eggs and boiled cauliflower. everytime pun orang nak perli-perli sebab "makan sihat", apakah?!

FINE (emo) -,-

anyway,i'm thinking of an advanced new year resolution. here goes, I NEED TO BE MORE FOCUS NOW! kurangkan tidur?! okay hopefully this resolution will be fulfilled, not just some words to comfort myself sebab tidur banyak sangat and the homework is piling again.... T___T

pray for meee, kbye.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

RANDOM

2011-12-18T03:02:00.008+08:00

clean your heart inside out. the ibadah, yes. and how you're treating everyone else around you. now that would be much much nicer :)

#self-reminder

The Golden Triangle

2011-12-13T19:17:00.011+08:00

ehem, baru sekarang nak update? sikit lagi cerita nak basi -,- anyway, better late than never kan? okay tak tahu nak start daripada mana sebab banyak sangat nak cerita. EH TAK UPDATE PUN PASAL OIC?! er, lepas ni la. i kan sangat busy.. *alasan* lagipun it's been 3 days i diarrhea - ber** dan muntah-muntah and deman T__T

okay tak kisah la i sakit ke apa (redha) sekarang kena cerita jugak what happened during the last holidays. so what is this Golden Triangle? (rasa macam pernah cerita tapi tak apa cerita lagi sekali) it represents Delhi-Jaipur-Agra, kalau pergi Delhi mesti kena pergi the other 2 places and jarak between these 3 places are the same which is 5 hours -,-

mula-mula i macam tak nak pergi tau sebab the ticket flight is quite costly for a domestic flight tapiiii sebab most of the girls pergi takkan la nak tinggal sini sorang-sorang makanya i pergi dengan rela hati hiks tapi tak menyesal pergi serius, tak tipu. kitorang pergi 19 orang perempuan under package apa entah yang include hotels, breakfast, bas dan tourist guide. the package is quite affordable sebenarnya cuma terkilan sikit makanan tak sedap sangat. mungkin peluang untuk kurangkan makan? T__T

mula-mula sampai Delhi terus check in hotel sampai-sampai lapar gila makan segala benda yang ada (Alya dengan Intan bawak nasi goreng yeay!) dan terus tidur. awal-awal pagi terus gerak pergi Jaipur, lama jugak jalan. yeah, 5 hours kot.. sampai je terus pergi Amer (or Amber) Fort. nama je "fort" tapi sebenanya it's a palace. besar gilaaaa okay, too bad kitorang tak cukup masa nak explore seluruh fort sebab tutup sempena Asyura celebration. oh, Muslim kat India sambut Asyura besar-besaran (kalau kita puasa je kan?) gila meriah kot and i actually a bit scary..

anyway, lepas pergi Amer Fort kitorang jalan-jalan tengok Wind Palace, Water Palace and Pink City. Pink City sounds interesting kan? actually not haha sebab it is simply a city di mana most of the buildings are painted with pink colour. ceritanya macam ni, ada seorang raja yang i mesti la lupa apa nama dia nak sambut kedatangan putera daripada England so he must be so excited to see "mat salleh" for the first time haha so he painted all the buidings pink! gila orang banyak duit memang suka buat kerja pelik-pelik -,-

esoknya kitorang gerak pergi Agra! since kitorang bertolak dalam tengahari macam tu (sebab shopping heh) so sampai Agra malam so sampai terus tidur. pagi esoknya baru pergi Taj Mahal! Taj Mahal sangat cantik, berapa kali entah i cakap "Subhanallah cantiknyaaa" i bet everyone would say the same thing :") tahu kan cerita Shah Jehan dan Mumtaz? kalau tahu diam je sebab i nak cerita jugak. Shah Jehan sebenarnya ada EMPAT isteri. yeah yeah, that disappointed me a little.. anyway, dia paling sayangg Mumtaz sebab she is his own choice. the other wives were meant for political relationship je. Mumtaz sangat cantik and they met at a gem market. they got married afterwards and got 14 children! too bad Mumtaz meninggal umur 30-an sebab tak ada perancangan keluarga and 7 of their children pun tak survive. sedih kan? bila Mumtaz meninggal, dia mintak 3 perkara dengan Shah Jehan; (1) build a monument as a prove for their love (alolooo sweet sangatt), (2) take care of their daughters and (3) NEVER REMARRIED! and he never did :)

panjang lagi cerita sebenarnya tapi tak nak la korang bosan tiba-tiba belajar sejarah dunia kat sini -,-

lepas pergi Taj Mahal kitorang pergi Agra Fort, which is Shah Jehan's father's palace. cantik gila tempat ni, tapi dah banyak rosak sebab British dengki and rosakkan keindahan tempat tu?! sayang.

back to Delhi, kitorang pergi masjid apa i can't remember, India Gate, Lotus Temple and Qutub Minar. panjang gila nak cerita satu-satu apa kata kita tengok gambar pulak? jyeah! #gigih gila cerita semua benda :")

p/s : pictures in random order.

the first glimpse of Taj Mahal! :)

eh lupa cerita pasal niiii! ini Jantar Mantar which is sangat awesome.

kat sini the astronomers find out what's the time and location of Earth.

hebat kan? but it all comes from Islam's astronomers i bet :)

the building is actually a clock with accuracy of 2 seconds. gilaa.

Farahi the gorgeous and meee.

a random shop.

comel kaaan gambar ni? ini kat Taj Mahal. if you notice,

dekat pintu masuk ada tulisan khat. it's actually Surah Yasin :)

Jantar Mantar.

ini guest house tepi Taj Mahal.

on the way up to Amer Fort.

Water Palace. tempat ni exclusively for a king to play music.

he didn't want any distraction so he built a palace in water?! heh orang kaya..

supposedly you can see Agra Fort from here tapi ada kabus so tak nampak.

ada cerita sedih, Shah Jehan in his last years kena kurung dalam a room in Agra Fort

which he can see Taj Mahal from far. sedih kan?

he kept reminded of his sad love story sampai la meninggal..

btw nak tahu siapa kurung dia?

HIS FREAKING OWN SON.

gila kuasa punya pasal..

okay gila penat cerita. lain kali cerita pasal OIC (kalau rajin) haha bye. btw esok Umi datang siniiii *nangis sebab happy* :")

p/s : thanks Azrin and Sab for the planning and dealing with the money/tempe. thanks girlfriends for making me so bahagia huehuehue may Allah bless all of you sayangs :)

sigh

2011-12-11T02:23:00.003+08:00

i wanted to blog about the trip to Delhi, Jaipur and Agra (they called it the Golden Triangle) but i have to wait for the nice pictures to be uploaded heh, i mana ada camera and my phone camera is only 3.2 mp what do you expect from me T,T

i'm glad i cancelled the trip to Manipal (tho i missed the chance to see my friends) because i can finally spend some time for myself, Toby and tonnes of homework. told you i'm a geek at heart :p lagipun Manipal panas and i don't want to leave the coolness of Bangalore huehue

i am always the arrogant girl who thinks she's right all the time, i don't "accept" advises and i have my own theories on life. but maybe i'm wrong and everyone else is right. i have to change and i have to be better. what matters the most is the intention and istiqamah. haa, istiqamah la yang payaah sekali -,- doakan! :)

eh apa merepek ni? tak payah tahu la. doakan ye? ;)

#1 : Mangalore

2011-12-05T09:11:00.003+08:00

dear Allah, bless these sweet people :)

p/s : update more about OIC in Mangalore. off to Delhi now! *hugeee grin*

CUTIIIIII

2011-12-02T20:58:00.001+08:00

but i'll be so busy exploring India hekhek. will update soon, with pictures and lotsa happiness! insyaallah :)

in my head #1

2011-11-21T07:30:00.002+08:00

"..tho they knew"

now that's a head shot.

actually i do know. but i can't help it. it's hard because i started before i had something in my mind, i mean heart. now i could only avoid some things that can be avoided and pray hard that the right time would come.

i feel so bad.. Astaghfirullah :(

Sun-lazy-day

2011-11-20T19:19:00.003+08:00

Sabtu dan Ahad kali ni sangat menggembirakaaaan :D sebabnya tak ada banyak kerja sangat yang nak kena submit makanya boleh baca buku sikit-sikit (sebab Progress Test lagi 10 hari ow maaan) sambil bermalas-malas. setiap 2-3 jam mesti nak kena "consolidate memory" bahasa mudahnya TIDUR haha harap-harap teori Dr Suresh ni menjadi la ye? :B

sekarang Bangalore sangat sejuk brr brrr tapi tak ada la salji bagai cuma nak tidur je kena pakai stoking haha sangat over. bila sejuk apa yang paling seronok buat? yes, tidur. weekend je i boleh tidur banyak macam ni kalau weekdays tak sempat tidur mesti stress fikir kerja apa nak kena submit esok T___T

oh ya, India memang negara panas mungkin lagi panas daripada Malaysia tapi ada certain places yang sejuk terutamanya North India contohnya Kashmir yang siap bersalji bagai. Bangalore is a small area yang paling selatan India sepatutnya panas gila la kan tapiiii i'm so lucky Bangalore kawasan tanah tinggi so temperature lebih kurang Cameron Highlands tapi lagiiiii sejuk brr brrr (sekarang cuba imagine Toby bulu kembang sambil purr sebab sejuk).

eh, kenapa jauh sangat menyimpang daripada cerita asal?! okay. semalam ada 2 housewarmings yang nak kena attend. i dengan seronoknya menerima jemputan makan-makan sebab memang malas gila la kan nak masak untuk lunch dah la Ruski dah habis T___T sangat bahagia tengahari makan nasik lauk kari daging, ayam masak merah dan udang masak apa tak sure tapi sedap gila and malamnya makan nasi ayam dengan roti jala! btw, terima kasih @Nur Imani (alamak lupa ni bukan Facebook nak tag) sebab sudi memenuhi permintaan saya nak makan kek batik :")

terima kasih juga kepada @Alya Azwan sebab cheese cake sedap dan saya makan hampir separuh pinggan (semalam ada orang complain dessert tak cukup maaf la, i la yang habiskan dessert heheheh). semua orang sangat pandai masak, i doakan semua orang cepat kahwin #random.

Ahad pun sangattt menyeronokkan walaupun tak ada housewarming i boleh lunch date dengan Alif! fine la kan, makan kat Gokul depan apartment i je tapi seronok jugak tak kira. tepat jam 12 nanti i dah tak seronok dah sebab esok sekolah woo sedihnya kenapa weekend pergi dengan begitu cepat? T___T

perasan tak, my Bahasa is so bad it's like i'm talking in weird bahasa baku. maybe i should blog more in English next time. kbai! :D

being human

2011-11-20T02:33:00.002+08:00

i envy M. i want a friend like yours too. i want the optimism like yours too. i want the ignorance like yours too. i want a brain like yours too.

someone would read this and say, "Be grateful". i am, i just envy her, that's all.

maybe i'm not good enough.

Eiduladha

2011-11-18T07:23:00.004+08:00

yeah baby, i'm thaaat busy sekarang baru sempat nak update pasal raya haji like, 2 weeks ago?! blame it on the new modular system, we got tonnes of homeworks to be done and submitted and too many housewarmings to be attended (eh?) huehue.

since almost everyone moved to new house with new housemates and new cat (this only applicable to me haha), we decided to do housewarming. it's kind of a culture here we masak-masak some food and invite our friends borak-borak gelak-gelak it's much fun i tell you.. tapi penat la sikit when it's actually our turn to masak -_-

our housewarming was on Saturday last week and i made two dishes! i cooked chicken rendang and kurma dagingg (korban) yang macam mana rasa pun i tak tahu sebab i forgot to turn off the gas the last thing i know it's already on the serving table?! Mira cooked the very spicy kuah kacang, it tasted really good. hebatt, i must say, since it's her first ever kuah kacang! :D our guest chef (..la sangat haha), Alif cooked the main dish, nasi tomato with ayam masak merah and acar. tapiiii i did most of the cuttings and told him to put more this and less that with the acar so basically it's my acar, not his haha.

i made some desserts too, i baked two apple caramel cakes and some banana split (without ice cream) and thanks to Kak Mier for the extramoiszt (ejaan nak poyos je kan haha) chocolate cake! tho the only thing that i tasted was the leftover melted chocolate.... -_-

mesti la i tak ada banyak gambar kan huehue (kalau ada pun malas nak upload) but for the sake of showing off HAHAHA i must upload some pictures!

kek tak cantik sangat tapi sedap okay.

notice something? haha yeah, those pots belong to some kakak seniors

we cook like once a year so takkannya nak beli pots besar kan huehue

wore the abaya Sha bought from Egypt.

Sha you're so insensitive sengaja beli saiz XXL just to remind me that i'm fat?!

T___T

...and this is the only picture i have during celebration at college.

i'm thaaat lazy to take pictures :p

bye!

thank YOU

2011-11-12T21:22:00.002+08:00

cheers to the very person who is always there for me when i'm in need. people come and go but you stay. thank you :)

Toby!

2011-11-07T03:41:00.002+08:00

Toby is naughty and fat.

today he jumps out of window and no one realizes he's outside until i heard him mewing non stop -_-

Pending

2011-11-06T07:36:00.005+08:00

i have 1 pending post about a cancer campaign i went last week. but i have to give way for raya wish! this would be the second "Aidiladha di perantauan" :)

i like it hereee sebab sangat meriah and kalau nak korban pun sangaaat murah. here, untuk satu bahagian lembu it costs about Rs 1600 which equals to RM 100+ which is very cheap compared to what we have to pay in Malaysia. but it's not about how cheap or whatever it's about how sincere you are (someone said to me earlier). anyway, in India Aidiladha would be tomorrow. kitorang selalu lambat satu hari, even for Aidilfitri.

so happy Aidiladha people! i have something to share regarding the miracle of slaughtering in Islam. see how beautiful Islam is :")

This is a question-answer session with a medical practitioner on the benefits of the Islamic method of slaughtering animals.
- Question: Dr. John, if the veins that are in the front part of the neck of the animal are cut, what would happen to that animal?

- Dr. John: Scientifically speaking, when an animal or human has his veins that are found in the front part of the neck cut, he will faint immediately.
To clarify, he said that if someone was strangled, he would suffer extreme dizziness and lack of concentration because it is difficult for the blood to reach the brain, and if the duration of strangling was longer, he will lose sensation and faint.

- Question: So, cutting the veins that are in the front part of the neck of the slaughtered animal and letting the blood flow outside its body leads to unconsciousness?

- Dr. John: Yes, definitely.

- Question: Does the slaughtered animal feel any pain immediately after having its neck cut?

- Dr. John: Of course not, as it is totally unconscious.

- Question: Then, why does the animal do such spasmodic movements that give the feeling that it is in pain?

- Dr. John: This is because when the veins are cut without breaking the bones of the slaughtered animal’s neck, which is exactly the case in the Islamic way of slaughtering, the brain does not receive blood while the cerebrum is still alive and the neurological system that is at the back part of the neck is still linked to all the systems of the body. Thus, the neurological system sends signals to the heart, the muscles, the intestines and all the cells of the body to send blood to the cerebrum. This makes all the cells, intestines and muscles of the body make spasmodic movements to push the blood to the heart which sends the blood to the brain. However, the blood leaves the animal’s body instead of going to the brain because the veins of the neck are already cut. The neurological system continues to send signals and blood leaves the animal’s body until all the blood flows out. The widespread idea that animals suffer from pain when slaughtered by this method was scientifically proven to be wrong as animals faint and totally lose sensation as soon as the veins are cut.

- Question: Medically speaking, is it better to leave the blood inside the body of the animal or let the blood flow out of the body?

- Dr. John: Blood is one of the most fertile environments where germs grow and it also carries substances that are harmful for the human body. So, if the blood remained in the meat directly after the death of the animal, it will be a fertile environment for germs, in addition to the harmful substances that are present in it.

- Question: What do you think of the other ways of slaughtering animals especially the way that is used in most European countries which is hitting the animal on its head so that it would faint, then slaughtering it afterwards?

- Dr. John: This method has dangerous ramifications on the health of humans. This is because the animal dies slowly when it is hit in this method and this causes the membrane that lines the large intestines to lose its ability to retain the bacteria that is in the large intestines. Therefore, the bacteria penetrates the body of the animal, finds the blood and swims in it while interacting with it until it spreads throughout the entire body of the animal. The safest way of eating meat that is free from blood and bacteria is by getting rid of the blood of the animal and letting it flow out.

bye!

:(

2011-10-27T01:25:00.002+08:00

i can feel that you're changing. tapi mesti la you deny. bai.

weekend at Nandi Hills

2011-10-26T11:54:00.006+08:00

i decided to go to a "leadership convention" at Nandi Hills (refer to the last post) tho i'm not at all a leader (as in a MSA member which stands for Malaysian Student Association). but but it was so much fun! tak rasa isolated pun walaupun i bukan la MSA :') the facilitators referred us as "group of leaders" so we have to lead ourselves and everyone is so friendly and sweeeet i miss them already :)

kat sana i jumpa a friend from Manipal, Asilah (and her friend Farhana) she got a cool camera and she's really good with it too! that explains why we (as in me Mia Intan and Nisa) got so many pictures huehuehuehue. hari ni i freee sangat sebab i cuti Diwali so i akan upload gambar untuk semua orangg (haha poyos macam artis sikit).

we met an Indian guy who took music course here he's so good he knows everything about music out of nowhere we came out with an idea why don't we sing together? haha it was hilarious sebab kitorang (kecuali Intan) suara gila tak sedap pitching lari bagai tapi he said just go with it and have fun. sporting gila kan? i'm so sorry we ruined your reputation huehuehue.

i'm glad i decided to go :) so here are the pictures (in random order).

woo i actually grinned!
bukan senang i nak tunjuk gigi dalam gambar hehe

spot the hill!

the grand dinner! (with Farhana)

meet Asilah! :D

kbye! cuti tiga hariiiiii huehuehue.

weekend yeaaay!

2011-10-20T23:57:00.003+08:00

every Monday, i couldn't wait for Saturday to come. makanya tiap-tiap minggu i sangat ternanti-nantikan hari Sabtu haha macam tak ada life gila setiap kali pun nak weekend datang cepat-cepat. bila sabtu dah sampai tiba-tiba ada program dengan MARA sekarang rasa nak menangis sebab tak nak pergi (sebelum ni beria-ria nak pergi) rasa macam BTN days all over again.

ceritanya macam ni, out of nowhere ada orang ajak pergi Nandi Hill katanya ada MARA Talk, bunyi macam best sebab last time pergi MARA Talk kat Chennai sangat best (walaupun perjalanan jauh) macam berbaloi la bazirkan weekend. makanya i semangat la nak pergi nak makan mewah hehe tiba-tiba tengok tentatif sebijik macam BTN eeiii geramnya kang dah membazir weekend i T__T

tak nak pergi! tapi dah bagi nama? boleh tak pagi esok baru buat keputusan, kalau rasa nak pergi cepat-cepat kemas baju kalau malas kena cepat-cepat iron baju and pergi sekolah :D pergi sekolah lagi best daripada kena repeat BTN heh.

btw result exam Final first year dah keluar! cuba tekaaa! heheheheheh Alhamdulillah i dapat dua A (Anatomy and Biochemistry) and A- for Physiology. dah agak daaaah, i selalu tak pandai nak elaborate panjang-panjang kalau jawab soalan Physio T___T tapiiii sangat bersyukur dapat title distinction hehehehe kbai mana boleh riak lebih-lebih nanti Allah tarik balik semua nikmat. tahniah semua orang!

banyak gila kerja!! kbai nak sambung buat kerja.

Stress

2011-10-15T11:27:00.002+08:00

tak tak, i tak ada exams/quizzes/mcq or anything related dalam masa terdekat. i bukan stress sebab nak exams ke ape tapi stress sebab...

1) ...tiba-tiba sistem belajar secara "tradisional" kat kolej i dah berubah jadi sistem "modular" i don't really understand what it means but the dean said she wants to "Malaysionize" our learning system here (as in such word exist?). she said she wants us to "fit" in Malaysian working environment that we don't have to follow the Indian "traditional" system anymore. kalau macam tu bawak je la kitorang balik Malaysia, what's the pint of studying in India anymore?

but i kind of getting used to this system (sebab dah belajar selama 2 minggu), it means less classes and more self-studying. i always love lecture classes! but having to "self-studying" buat i jadi curious and jadi makin rajin nak belajar. eh faham tak? selama ni semua benda nak lecturers je cakap tapi sekarang kalau kau nak tahu baca la sendiri tak faham baru tanya lecturers.

okay, apa yang menyebabkan i stress adalah ... i tak faham format exams macam mana?! integrated la, practicals jadi 1 hari la, tiba-tiba professional exams mansuh la eeeiii apa semua ni i tak faham la tak ada orang nak terangkan betul-betul T_____T bosan la macam ni bye.

2) dulu ada 3 subjects je. makanya ada 3 record books yang nak kena settle every weekend (tunggu weekend je kan baru nak settle huehuehue), selalunya record book Physiology memang tak sentuh la kan sebab lecturer baik sangat bukannya nak tanya dah siap ke belum esok nak exam (practical) baru lecturer mintak mesti la kena tunggu last minute baru nak siapkan.

sekarang ada 4 subjects dan 4 record books nak siapkan every weekend. lecturers sekarang sangat strict (sebab sistem baru) semua benda nak bagi markah, attitude, dressing, communication skills etc etc boleh tak nak menangis sebab stress? malas gila nak sentuh record books rela update blog T____T

3) batuk dan diarrhea tak baik lagiiii. stress la macam ni setiap kali lepas makan terus berlari masuk tandas.

4) esok kena bagi "talk" untuk juniors baru masuk. macam mana nak bagi talk, juniors pun lagi tua daripada i?! sebab ada budak KMB/KMS yang buat persedian 2 tahun baru datang sini makanya diorang dah 20 i baru 19?! T____T

doakan i tabah. bye.

back in India

2011-10-05T02:31:00.004+08:00

2 busy days. new lecturers, new rules and regulations, new subjects and new books, new specs (eh?), everything is new and SO FAST (i have piles of homework to be submitted by the end of the week) i barely have the time to breath properly! i don't like the current lecture hall i want my old chair in the previous lecture hall :(

okay jangan emosional lebih-lebih/ ehem. now i'm learning 4 new subjects - Pathology, Pharmacology, Microbiology (bosannya i tak minat langsung nak tahu life cycle tape worm?!) and Forensic Medicine. textbooks tak ada lagi, nama tak tulis lagi kat buku, record books tak balut lagi haaah malasnya..

anyway, a classmate of mine is now a married woman! wow, 20 and married! i wouldn't be that hebat to carry all the responsibilities as a wife at such a young age..

*too sleepy to write i'll continue this as soon as i'm awake*

i actually continue writing this 5 days later?!

anyway, i demam dah dua hari. asal balik India (as in lepas cuti yang lama) mesti kena diarrhea and demam. sebenarnya demam semalam semalam sebab diarrhea (infection kot) and macam dah elok sikit then pergi main hujan dengan Ama and Iman padan muka dah demam balik T___T

sila doakan i tabah dah rajin baca buku oh and, tempe yag nak pasang internet kat rumah kitorang datang cepat sikit. rasa macam tak ada life gila bila internet rumah kena potong heh. kbye.

Looking back

2011-09-30T23:12:00.003+08:00

this used to be my favourite poem. i read it over and over again until i cry. gila emosional -,- but i'm so busy these past couple of years i barely remember any word of it. tiba-tiba terjumpa balik?! saje kan nak buat i emosional mentang-mentang dah kena balik India...

sepi itu adalah malam tanpa suara cengkerik
sepi itu adalah laut tanpa ombak
sepi itu adalah langit tanpa bintang
sepi itu adalah aku tanpamu
tanpa suaramu
tanpa jasadmu
tanpa cita-citamu
kau datang mengucapkan salam
lalu kau pergi tanpa pesan
aku kau tinggalkan bersama memori silam.

it's so miserable! come one man, there's no time to dwell on past memories. now it's time to look forward and back to India. eh?

doakan i - selamat pergi selamat sampai, gagah heret semua bags, tak menangis hingus meleleh sila sedar diri i budak tahun dua bukan budak baru fly (eh, tahun depan dah 20?!) dan tak teruja sangat jumpa buah hati (huehuehue) yang dah 2 minggu tak jumpa :") kbye.

little sissy

2011-09-29T20:33:00.003+08:00

selamat exam! PMR je kot huehuehuehue (riak).

p/s : what i'm wearing is called tudung malas, which i wear everyday at home haha

ramblings

2011-09-21T12:45:00.006+08:00

1. i don't like K-pop, K-dramas, K-couples or whatever K that comes from Korea. i only like some of K-food (K-food haha) and i don't like K-too-beautiful-males these guys definitely turn me off. call me lame or noob or whatever i don't actually care (this goes to my little sister who calls me lame and Sha who sneers at me because i prefer Malays) -,-

2. i went out with Sha last Sunday (or is it Monday?). last time she came to my house and left her handbag (senget) so i went to see her to return her handbag and teman her buying stuffs since she's going back to Egypt next week. i was proud of myself because i can resist buying all those lovely blouses :') (sebenarnya takut Umi marah sebab habiskan duit beli baju lagii)

3. i got 2 blouses from an aunt (i called her Chu) heheheheh. last time i got her a white and black saree with matching shawl form India and she's willing to become my bussiness partner! but i don't think Mom likes the idea haha.

4. R and A remove me from their Facebook friend lists?! fine, merajuk tak nak pergi majlis tunang kau (tiba-tiba). i was like "rude gila kau yang add aku dulu kot pehal nak remove grr", walhal selama ni i remove orang sesuka hati padan muka T___T

5. my blog is full of craps if compared to this *insaf* T___T

Raya at my house

2011-09-16T09:45:00.006+08:00

we had a Raya feast at my house yesterday. banyaaak gila makanan ada nasi ayam, laksa, spaghetti with homemade sauce (huehue), trifle, sate with kuah kacang, ketupat with rendang daging, kuih tradisional (tak tahu nama apa), fruits and some nasi minyak (some as in makanan tambahan takut-takut makanan tak cukup). nasi ayam was awesome! and i think everyone likes my trifle heheheheh.

the best part of it is Alif was there too! he came all the way from JB and he spent one whole day in Terengganu and back to JB again. he did promise me to come and see my parents but i didn't expect him to keep the promise because Terengganu is not dekat, jauh kot. 9 jam perjalanan kot. i won't mind if he don't come but he did! :')

since Umi said the feast is kecil-kecilan, i only invited some of my friends. kalau ajak pun semua orang dah start balik kolej tinggal i sorang-sorang je kat sini (emo) T____T thank you Sha Faten Yah and Miza for coming. but i am truly sorry i was so busy in the kitchen tak sempat nak layan sangat..

Ira came home with 40 classmates haha reminds me of zaman i muda-muda dulu pantang boleh keluar asrama seronok bukan main -,- i don't know if Ira really loves me (eh?) or she's just showing off in front of her friends. out of nowhere she sauddenly said "sayaaaang Angah" eh eh tiba-tiba haha.

these are some pictures i manage to snap during the chaos (haha);

Nana and Dhia

dua-dua baju terangkat, haa elok sangat la tu -,-

Haikal and his sisters

"You nak jadi macam Azam eh?"
#Azam is a friend yang sangat suka posing poyos nasib baik hensem eh eh.

"You macam gay" -,-

every kid loves the pool tak sah kalau tak ada budak
yang sengaja/tak sengaja jatuh

Yah Sha Miza and Faten thanks for comingg :D

eh?

kbye!

Kbye

2011-09-12T21:26:00.003+08:00

my friend, F is leaving for UK by 15th. come on, why i have to be so sad about seeing her leaving? not that i would be in Malaysia if she's here.

maybe because she's so special i don't want her to leave, without seeing me first T____T

F and i are close friends back in high school. we always do things together and i spent most of time with her. she's so kind and loyal and i was so bossy and ignorant i always forget to appreciate her presence.

when i was 15, i wanted to do a lot of things and i wanted to be the person i never got the chance to be. i never really care about having a best friend i thought i could live for myself and i wanted other people to see me as an independent girl.

there was one day F and i were heading somewhere (can't remember) we were hand in hand like always. a cikgu saw us and tegur, "amboiii korang ni berkepitt je setiap masa". i know she's just joking but i took it very seriously. tak cool okay bila cikgu cakap macam tu. so i said to F, "eeii lain kali jangan la pegang tangan kita depan cikgu malu la".

when i was 15, i was rapat with a guy that i secretly like. but trusting a guy when you were just 15 is the stupidest thing. he wanted to see me because there was a rumour about us "together" and he was so mad. i asked F to teman, i said "duduk je sebelah kita tapi jangan cakap apa-apa". the guy and i had a row and i was yelling at him. i was so frustrated i ran back to my room and there she was asking me if i'm okay.

another day, i asked F to teman me (again) to a competition. i said to her "masa kita kat atas pentas nanti, jangan pandang kita pun nanti kita nervous". when i was on the stage i took a glance at her and there she was, looking out of the door and trying not to stare at me.

i was 16 when i learnt a lot of things. i wanted to have someone close to me, someone that's kind and loyal and i was (still am) ashamed of how ignorant i was towards F. so i said i was sorry. i truly was.

but i was just 16, i forgot what i had promised and maybe i was too late when i wanted to say sorry again. suddenly F was not the same F i used to know. it was her turn to become the ignorant one in our friendship.

we argued about a lot of things. satu hari, i asked her to make Milo for me. she said it's my turn not hers. later at night she said "why it's always has to be me? you said i'm your best friend but why didn't you do like you said you would?". it was the first time i ever seen her cry. i was so sorry but i said nothing.

when i was 16, i did a lot of things to make sure she forgave me. we might seem as close but i could feel the distant every time we spent time together. but i always so happy when she was there for me.

i sayang her so much i kissed her at the mouth haha. we wore green kebaya during a grand dinner. we ate a lot of Maggi together and we waited for each other for every lunch and dinner. we sat next to each other in classes and i taught her Add Maths, Biology, Chemistry.. and she taught me Maths. we exchange presents during out birthdays and .... fine, there were too many memories i couldn't remember all.

i said i was sorry so many time she said "jangan cakap benda yang kita tak nak dengar lagi kalau tak kita tak nak cakap dengan kamu lagi".

when i was 16 and it was the last day of school i said "jangan menangis masa kita cakap selamat tinggal nanti sebab there's no goodbyes in friendship". we hugged but we didn't cry. but she did cry when she said goodbyes to our friends.

tadi she said "status kau ada kaitan dengan aku ke?". of course it does, i was so sedih i can't hug you goodbye :(

i am so sorry i was (and still am) not a good friend. i am so sorry i did a lot of bad things to you. hidup baik-baik. belajar rajin-rajin. sayang kau so much haha please don't read this i'd be so malu if you do haha kbye :D

comelnya -_-

2011-09-12T15:10:00.011+08:00

By Daily Mail Reporter - Suri Cruise set a cracking pace as she hurried to her gymnastics class in New York today.

Not even a pair of heels - her favourite, if controversial, accessory - were able to slow her down as she arrived at Chelsea Piers, a sports complex in Manhattan, with her mother Katie Holmes.

Looking much older than her tender age, she skipped along with a lilac handbag on her arm and a doll in the other.

Suri is rumoured to have more than 130 pairs of shoes, many of which have been custom made. Actress mum Katie Holmes has previously defended her daughter's footwear, saying: 'They are actually ballroom dancing shoes for kids,' Katie said. 'I found them for her and she loves them.'

p/s : i found a website full of Suri's pictures. why she has to be so cute?!

first time beli baju online sebab tu seronok heheh

2011-09-07T21:21:00.009+08:00

the parcel arrived this morning and i was so excited i forgot the finish my breakfast! biasa la, kali pertama dapat parcel (selain daripada MARA atau MSU) heheheh. thanks to Sabrina Jasman, check out her blog mana la tahu dia ada baju nak jual lagi :)

i always love cardigans and blazers because most of my baju are short-sleeves and it is so troublesome to wear an inner (and panas too) so i usually match my blouses/tshirts with cardigans. especially when i wake up late and have to rush to class haha.

anyway, the blazer is actually pink in colour but its not too pink it may be light brown er, not sure -.- it is short and it fits me well. and it's cheap too! haa, i dah pandai berjimat sekarang sila rasa bangga haha.

after this i want to have an online banking account (baru nak ada haha bosan gila) and it'd be easier for me to shop more (bagi alasan kat Abah senang nak beli tiket flight) heheheh kbye!

MAHU

2011-09-06T21:48:00.004+08:00

i used to be slimmer (not slim, but slimmer compared to now). back then i always complained about how i look and once i stopped eating rice for a month the result was satisfying (remember this?).

that was years ago. now i'm in India i have money and i have a friend to teman me makan-makan i'm getting so fat i should be in The Biggest Loser. everyone i met during raya wouldn't stop reminding me how fat i am and even the doctors are suggesting it is best for me to reduce my weight (due to fragile blood vessels hmph).

this is boring, don't you guys have better things to do that worrying about my weight? thanks anyway but i'll be fine. i'd stop eating and start exercising. once i lose all my fat don't say anything like "eh, dah kurus tak cukup makan ke kat India?" i'd slap you in the face (heh). hmph.

bye.

appointment with doctor

2011-09-04T20:07:00.006+08:00

yes, that's what happened yesterday -.-' Dr Zohdi (kot) is an orthopedic and he seemed excited to have a medical student as a patient. he explained in details about x-ray, bones, nerves... *yawn*.. i always hate learning about x-ray and bones they bore me haha.

it was Umi's idea to see a specialist she was so worried when a previous doctor said my numb left shoulder may be due to a bent backbone that might compress my nerve. blame that doctor (tak memasal haha)!

she gave me calcium too (she said it might help my backbone to grow normally), when i asked Dr Zohdi about the significance of calcium he just made a face and said it's up to me to continue taking the pills or to drop it. he said "kalau nak calcium lebih baik makan vitamin D".

tahu kenapa? sebab vitamin D la yang tolong absorption (penyerapan?) calcium dalam badan. as in, kalau tak ada vitamin D badan tak akan serap calcium. usually calcium ada in every food that we take. makanya, if i continue to take calcium my bones might degenerate (osteoporosis) due to too much calcium. haa, kang bahaya..

eeeiiii he wouldn't stop laughing at me! he said "ramai budak-budak medical datang bawak mak ayah jumpa saya.." i know what he's trying to say! he means, budak-budak medical ni terpengaruh sangat dengan apa yang diorang belajar.. fine -.-' sampai i nak keluar nak tutup pintu pun dia tak habis gelak lagi hmph.

at least i learn my lesson. eh, bukan stop jumpa doktor bila ada symptoms pelik-pelik (imaginasi haha) tapi kena selalu exercise and jaga makan bukan duduk rumah belajar je badan akan jadi penat/lemah bila tak berpeluh okay jom rajin jogging lepas ni (paksa Amalina temankan jogging) T__T

kbye.

macam dulu-dulu

2011-09-03T10:20:00.005+08:00

i thought things would be awkward.

thank God it was fun fun fun! :D
i miss you guys.

:')

p/s : excuse my shades Malaysia is too hot *poyos* haha

Duo

2011-09-01T23:28:00.005+08:00

the other day i was browsing Abah's bb and i found an old picture of me! it was almost a year ago i was crying my heart out for not wanting to leave my family for India haha how immature *shrug shoulders* HAHA. anyway, the first year of MBBS is over i would be a second year student soon woo!

eh, sebenarnya tak nak cakap pasal ni tiba-tiba je cakap -.-'

so today i went beraya with my parents we went to see Umi's sick friend. this is not the usual sakit as is sakit sikit-sikit but she has cancer and Umi said she might be dying T__T initially it is breast cancer but the cells invade her bones and now it is both breast and bone cancers.

do you want to know why these cells invade bones? why bones why not other organs? it is because breast's lymphatic drainage is continuous with that of backbone. and the cells might "fall" on ovaries too.

it would be easy right if the cancer cells are localized on a particular site then you can chop off the infected site and poof, no more cancer. too bad it is not that easy. blame lymphatic drainage for that hmph.

it is so awkward to visit a sick friend. how do i supposed to act? do i have to look sympathetic and speak slowly? or do i have to act happy and cheer her up? hmph this is hard. i am no good at comforting people i guess.

and i'm having an appointment with a doctor next week. let's pray that i am not too sick to be as happy as i am now :)

my Eid

2011-08-30T20:18:00.003+08:00

i reached home (as in Terengganu) one day before Eid. i spent the night before with my friends as we waited for the next flight early in the morning. it was rainy and the ride was bumpy but i spent the whole one hour sleeping haha. my parents are so sweeeeet they took me to a resort (i think it's Sutra Beach Resort but i'm not sure) for break fast and the food was awesome :D i had some pictures but of course i'm too lazy to upload haha, nanti la -.-

before buka puasa (break fast) i went to see a doctor. nothing serious i guess, i only have some problems with my fragile blood vessels and compressed nerves. doctor said i'll be fine as soon as i reduce my weight. FINE. she gave me 4 kinds of pills which i hate so much. eh eh. so i spent the eve of Eid by sleeping. tsk.

the next morning i woke up early and help Umi with rendang! Umi;s rendang is my favourite! :') too bad Umi takes the doctor's advises very seriously and wouldn't allow me to eat more that 4 slices of lemang T___T for the time being i hate all the doctors in the world. heh.

btw i wore saree for Eid :D it was a gift from Alif, much much love haha. i wore it with a brand new leopard printed shawl ala this beautiful girl ecehcehceh but i forgot to take pictures -.- (if i did i would be too lazy to upload haha)

though every year our Eid is like a routine - the same houses, the same conversations, the same people yada yada but i had fun. cuma tahun ni lain sikit je, semua orang asyik cakap "eh, kat India makan sedap ke? nampak berisi sikit" dem T__T

nasib baik ada orang back up. mak cik i cakap "ala, masa belajar kena la gemuk sikit kan nak belajar kena guna banyak tenaga. nanti dah on call situ sini haa kurus la" woo :') tunggu la nanti i kurus. hmph. kbye.

the magic word and free vouchers

2011-08-27T00:13:00.005+08:00

the Final exam has ended two days ago and the results were out today! but they only mention whether it is a PASS or FAIL. Alhamdulillah i got PASS for each subject :') so i have to wait for a whole month for a proper exam results -.- i don't want to expect for anything i just ask God to give me something that i deserve. hopefully.

i'll be home by Sunday! i don't really feel the vibe of going home (yet) maybe because i have so many things to do before Sunday (so many things as in so many things to buy for everyone heheheh).

i spent the whole day today settling my Residential Permit (RP). in India, every foreigner must a RP which has to be renewed once a year. everyone hates doing RP since we have to wait for the whole day for our turn walhal settle isi borang sign sikit-sikit ambil masa 15 minit je -.- and everyone hates the locals (tempe) that manage our RP applications. some of them are very rude. tapi sebab nak settle jugak semua benda sebelum balik kitorang sabaaaar je and go with the flow.

i was so stressed masa settle hal RP and i wanted to be mad at everyone. shamefully, i did. there was this one tempe which guarded the entrance to the office. he did not allow me to get in and i was like whatthe** la kan, i bukannya nak buat apa i wanted to collect my RP kot! i was so freaking mad and i raised my voice and told him i don't care what he would say i just want to get in. gila rude kan?

but of course i just followed what he said and wait downstairs. when it was my turn to collect the RP i told him nicely please let me in my RP is ready by then. guess what he said? "Finally you said please, you are a student you must follow the rules and be polite". DANG. i am a lady and i wear hijab but i shouted at an old guy and made a face? not cool at all T____T on my way back to college i cried HAHA because i was so ashamed of my behaviour.

anyway, i went back to college to see the results and afterwards i went for my very first appointment with Kaya! Kaya is actually a local facial product. i've been using Kaya for three months by now and it works very well with my skin! it clears off my pimples and my skin is so soft i want to touch my face every few seconds haha exaggerate much. Kaya gave me four free vouchers worth Rs 3.5k each! woo.

the website

i did Aqua Radiance treatment and Laser Hair Removal for free! btw, laser hair removal is actually painful T___T and i did asked my Mom's permission before i underwent the minor surgery hehe. the staffs keep bugging me to try all the treatments amboi, banyak duit.. but i was so tempted maybe i'll try Aqua Radiance once again later :)

kbye!

Crave

2011-08-23T00:15:00.002+08:00

nak sushi dengan dimsum T___T

1 moreee!

2011-08-21T00:29:00.004+08:00

exam teori dah habis yeaaay! tinggal lagi 3 hari exam practicals and and baliiik dan rayaaaa heheheheh bahagianya. eh, kurang bahagia sebab hari Sabtu (sehari sebelum balik) maybe result keluar (?!), scary kan? dah la soalan exam macam em emmm tak expected sikit. heh.

anyway *malas nak fikir pasal exam yang dah lepas*, MARA sangat generous sebab bagi elaun buku sebelum kitorang balik makanya i sangat generous nak belikan semua orang macam-macam eh eh. tapi tiba-tiba Sha deactivate Facebook sekarang macam mana nak tanya dia nak sari warna apa? -.-'

tadi ada satu kejadian sedih masa exam Biochemistry. sejak i balik India bulan lepas (kot) i dah malas pakai specs sebab i dah hilangkan specs baru so kena pakai specs lama yang macam dah longgar sikit. macam mana i hilangkan specs tu cuba teka? sebenarnya i pun tak tahu mana pergi tiba-tiba dah tak ada, dah la hilang sekali dengan bekas/kain pengelap T__T

specs lama tak ada la lama sangat baru je sebenarnya tapi mana cool pakai specs yang Umi pilih eh eh haha nak pakai specs yang beli guna duit sendiri eh eh.

makanya, i start pakai contact lens. ini pertama kali pakai lens yang clear sebelum ni poyo sikit nak yang colour je haha first pakai colour brown *raanya pernah tulis paal pengalaman pertama pakai contact lens HAHA* yang kedua colour grey tapi baru pernah pakai 2-3 kali sebab tak best lens tu mahal kot nasib baik orang hadiahkan je eh eh.

eh, i pakai contact lens kat mata kanan je tau sebab mata kanan je yang ada power. tahu apa perasaan pakai lens sebelah mata je? rasa makin rabun sebenarnya -.-' sebab bila pakai sebelah, memang la nampak clear apa yang depan mata tapi setakat yang ada depan mata je la (contohnya kertas exam) tapi tak akan nampak dengan jelas apa yang ada jauh sikit depan mata contohnya orang yang duduk depan i dalam exam hall. seksa sikit tapi asal bergaya -.-'

panjang gila intro. sekarang masuk cerita utama. hmph. tadi sediiih sebab masa exam tiba-tiba lens macam hilang. hilang as in kat cornea rasa macam ada lens. faham tak? selalunya pakai lens tak akan rasa pun pakai tapi kali ni rasa. tolong la faham macam mana perasaan tu T__T

makanya i pun gosok-gosok mata dengan harapan lens tolong la duduk diam-diam i tengah jawab exam susah kott (serius tadi soalan susah sikit). dalam 5- minit jugak gosok-gosok mata sebab mata sangat tak selesa wuwuuu rasa nak menangis sebab fikir macam mana nak mintak kebenaran lecturer yang jaga exam nak pergi toilet nak cari lens yang hilang dalam mata.

nasib baik tiba-tiba elok je. heh.

tolong la hadiahkan i specs baru untuk semester depan. i tak sesuai la pakai contact lens T___T kbye.

saya pun ada la! :D

2011-08-13T03:23:00.002+08:00

klik!

thanks to Mia! er tapi gambar je la -.- dulu selalu berangan nak jadi part of Salam Perantauan, tapi dulu-dulu berangan gambar tengah main salji haha heh tak kesampaian. okay bye!

eh, lupa nak wish happy fasting!

2011-08-09T21:09:00.002+08:00

i've been sooo busy for the past few days. i moved into a new house! :D sangat drastik tiba-tiba rasa nak pindah terus pindah minggu depannya. makanya bila tiba-tiba pindah banyak la benda yang nak settle. kitorang shopping pagi tu jugak petangnya pindah semua barang malamnya bersihkan rumah sampai pukul 11 kot. gila penat satu hari kott siapkan semua benda -.-'

Final is in a week time. and i'm. so. exhausted. bye.

happy fastingg :D

Moving out

2011-08-07T03:13:00.003+08:00

i'm moving out tomorrow morning. pindah secara tiba-tiba sebenarnya sangat stress. i sangat stress sekarang. semua benda pun nak stress. Anatomy buat i stress. and some people stressed me up. i need more timeee i need another 24 hours in a day T__T

permudahkan, ya Allah :(

Results

2011-07-30T14:54:00.003+08:00

meet Dr Rao! doesn't he look like Albert Einstein? haha! well that's me and Alif. i always look so serabai in dissection hall and i smell like one of those cadavers, trust me -.-

tak ada motif pun upload gambar sebenarnya dah la tak ada kaitan dengan tajuk...

...anyway! the full results are finally out! sebenarnya dah lama keluar and i dah 2-3 kali jugak update pasal tu but i save as drafts haha i'm not ready to share the news mana la tau i TER-riak ke and i might hurt some people.. but but this is my blog i can share whatever i like right? hm right.

semua orang tahu how much i hate Biochemistry and how much i tried and tried to love it as much as i love Anatomy. but guess what, i scored the highest mark in Biochemistry! i got 85/100 haha how weird is that? sumpah tak pernah expect pun *since i have no expectation at all for this subject* what a sweet suprise, Alhamdulillah :) as for the carry mark, i scored 40 out of 50. carry mark is the average of all the internal assessments, the quizzes and the assignments. carry mark contributes ONLY 30% of the total marks the rest depends on the Final exam. gulp, maknanya tak boleh rasa selesa sangat dan kena belajar lagi rajin ke T__T

for Physiology it was so-so, i only scored 144/200 when reduced to 60 it is only 43.2! but Alhamdulillah anyway, i know He wants me work harder for the Final exam. for the carry mark i scored about 76.something out of 100. must. work. harder *pengsan*

for Anatomy, i scored 166 out of 200 when it is reduced to 60 it is 50/60. mesti pelik kenapa kena reduce 60? because, markah 1st and 2nd IA cuma 60 3rd IA 200 sebab ada 2 papers so kena reduce jadi 60 sebab nak dapatkan average sebelum tambah markah quiz dan assignment. faham tak faham taaak? fine tak faham sudah -.-' anyway, carry mark dapat 85 out of 100 :D okay diam, jangan seronok sangat sebab banyak lagi nak kena score untuk Final T___T

tahu tak markah Final 400? gila kan. tolong la jangan jadi student Medic. banyak. gila. nak. baca. haa, i dah warning awal-awal..

okay bye nak pergi lunch! *tak sedar diri ada exam lagi 2 minggu* bye!

p/s : i beat I*** hehehehe okay bye.

Awkward

2011-07-26T21:02:00.003+08:00

awkward #1

me : Madam, why are you leaving? is it because i won't be your student next year?
madam : yes.
me : er, are you sure?
madam : yes!
me : *how awkward* haha
me again : i know you will miss me after this *always so perasan haha*
madam : i will.
me : *awkward face*

awkward #2

Dr Rao : you must sooo good, Dr Kulkarni asked you a lot of questions!
me : he did, but i can't aswer all the questions..
Dr Rao : what did he ask you? wow, i know you are good!
me : *this is so awkward*

awkward #3

some friends : hebatnya kau mesti boleh jawab semua soalan tadi kan kan?
me : eh, ada je yang aku tak tahu. nasib baik Sir tolong.
friends : hebat la kau!
me : *super awkward*

i'm not good at giving appropriate response when people said nice words. how awkward haha thank you anyway :) now let's just hope i keep my feet on the ground (with all the compliments) and remember all the good things belong to Allah..

Apology

2011-07-24T19:21:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry if i said something inappropriate and stressed everyone out. i didn't mean to, it was a small mistake which i am ashamed of.

semua orang good luck! :)

of exams and Harry Potter

2011-07-23T02:25:00.004+08:00

the theory papers end today and it went okay i guess. i mean, of course i don't expect much from Biochemistry i told everyone so many times i don't like Biochemistry except some of the interesting diseases i hate remembering the pathways and i definitely don't care who changes whom to whom, get what i mean?

but Madam Sara said every Medic student would hate Biochemistry but one day we would know how important the subject is. hm, one day? so despite of all the boring charts and pathways i manage to stay awake to prepare for the exam. and, guess what? i scored full marks on the objective question. seriously. HAHAHA. terkejut gila kot, because i don't expect that much. dalam hati cuma fikir tolong la jangan salah banyak sangattt tolong laaa. but He gave me a better suprise :D

tapi itu baru soalan bulat-bulat lagi 17 soalan esei entah apa cerita -.- *finger crossed!*

starting from Tuesday onwards we would have practical exams which are more fun and relaxed but i still have to read a lot because there would be viva questions. i janji esok akan start belajar malam ni penat la nak bukak buku dah la baru balik tengok movie (sangat lame baru tengok Harry Potter semua salah exam) hehehe, and tadi ada sale!!! and and i have to buy something for my new house *i'll tell details about the future new house in the next entry* so i bought bedsheet!! RED bedsheet!!! to be matched with my GREEN comforter and PURPLE curtain hahaha and i'm thinking of painting my wall red too :D

regarding HP, it was okay i guess? but i hate watching 3D movie in India gila tak berkualiti heh. the effects are awesome and Hermione (forgot her real name) is very very beautiful now that she's a grown up. faham tak perasaan depressed bila tengok orang cantik hmmph.

i'm too sleepy to wri.....te...... yawn... *poyo* haha okay bye!

p/s : Internal Assesments apa la sangat, Final lagi penting :)

my middle name is Careless

2011-07-21T17:18:00.002+08:00

i did a careless mistake which would cost me -5 marks. i should go and kill and myself T_____T

tapi kata nak tawakkal? eh. okay tak boleh sedih lagi sambung baca Biochemistry jom! *yawn* haha you should try reading Biochem i swear it is so boring hahaha tak apa, no matter how boring you are i still (have to) love you! :D

doakan!!

tiba-tiba

2011-07-11T22:35:00.002+08:00

i don't want to leave home but i can't wait to see you again haha i wanted to blog about our airport moments but i have no free timeee i am so caught up with books (yes i am talking about you Biochemistry!). i miss you hahahaha okay bye.

love,
didiey.

home

2011-07-07T13:22:00.003+08:00

stress sebab tak stress. am learning from mistakes, i have to be stressed in order to work continuously. bye.

Wordless Saturday

2011-07-02T16:51:00.005+08:00

i show affection towards my friends through hugs and kisses :)

Study week

2011-07-01T21:27:00.002+08:00

school is over! but it's not an official end yet, we have 2 HUGE exams before it is we officially end our first MBBS year. i'll be facing the 3rd IA on 18th July and the professional exam on 17th (kot) October.

esok bermula la study week selama dua minggu and the best part of it, i'm going back to Malaysia! haha gila drastik buat keputusan nak balik rumah like 2 or 3 days ago, tadi baru beli tiket and Isnin ni flight :') ingat taaak i pernah cakap kenapa nak balik duduk je la sini belajar elok-elok exam besar kottt haha poyo semata-mata nafsu nak balik lagi berkobar-kobar berbanding nafsu nak belajar eh apakah? -.-

Monday please be fast!

p/s : sebenarnya sangat sedih hari ni hari last sekolah tapi sebab excited nak balik lupa semua perasaan lain haha bye

Tanda malas layan

2011-06-27T22:41:00.002+08:00

1. i avoid looking directly into your eyes.

2. i don't start the conversation.

3. i said "i don't know" and stop the conversation.

4. i put on my earphones and listen to loud music.

5. i go to my room and close the door.

malas layan..

Suka tidur

2011-06-24T21:21:00.004+08:00

minggu ni minggu tidur sedunia -.-' hmph selalunya i boleh je control nafsu tidur. control as in, belajar dengan tenang (sambil online) dalam pukul 12-1 pagi akan tidur dengan tenang dan cuba bangun awal esok pagi. tapiiii minggu ni kitaran tidur (sleep cycle) sangat pelik! study satu jam tiba-tiba eh bosannya eh tidur satu jam. bangun study setengah jam eh bosannya kenapa mengantuk sangattt terus tidur tiba-tiba bangun lepas dua jam baru sambung study. apakah?

hmph my theory is, Biochemistry bores me so much HAHA. serius. kalau belajar Anatomy selalunya mampu belajar dengan gembira bila mengantuk terus tidur yang dah tak bangun-bangun tu. Physiology pun! kenapa Biochemistry sangat memusuhi saya? -.-'

anyway, thank God the final MCQ is over! maknanya semester ini dah hampir sampai ke penghujungnya :") mungkin sebab i belajar Biochemistry tanpa rasa cinta i terus dapat markah rendah -.-' i got 5 out of 10 for Biochem (?!), 19 out of 20 for Anatomy hehehe and 17 out of 20 for Physiology! Alhamdulillah.. tapi tetap loser sebab Biochem hampir fail hmph *fail adalah separuh daripada markah penuh* makanya kena belajar untuk menyayangi Biochem seadanya heh.

and somebody owed me DOUBLE MCD because i beat him this time hehehehe (in case you're reading this kau kan stalker haha).

esok malam sepatutnya ada hiking dengan keluarga usrah, tapi i tak pergi sebab hiking malam-malam bunyi macam scary je? lagipun i selalu kalau ada events masa weekend malas gila nak pergi sebab sayang weekend hehe. weekdays kan sangaaat busy so bila weekend je rasa nak relax kat rumah bangun lambat tidur lambat makan sesuka hati haha.

tapi bila fikir-fikir macam seronok hiking ramai-ramai dengan kawan-kawan perempuan sambil menikmati keindahan ciptaan Allah T__T hmph tadi dah paksa Kakak (usrah) ajak kitorang hiking lagi, maybe lepas exam? :)

oh ya, tadi Skype dengan Umi! jarang sangat Skype sebab call lagi senang Skype leceh sikit sebenarnya walaupun free. kalau Skype selalunya Umi ada je benda nak komen contoh "eh kenapa muka dah macam hindustan sikit sekarang?" boleh? haha -.-'

rindunyaaa, sangat dengki dengan beberapa orang yang sanggup balik Malaysia masa exam week dua minggu. kalau boleh nak balik jugak, rasanya i boleh je study walaupun kat Malaysia sangat selesa asalkan ada kehinginan nak berjaya semua benda boleh (skema). tapiii Abah cakap JANGAN balik tolong la sabar tak lama dah pun nak balik (Ogos) hmmm fine Abah... Umi cakap lagi, "jangan merajuk dengan Kakak lagi" hahaha memang merajuk pun, siapa suruh busy sampai tak tegur? grr. nak merajuk lagi satu hari boleh tak? -.-'

kbye nak siapkan record book esok nak keluar bersuka ria dengan Mira/Linda/Ama BYE!

Rabdom. Eh, i mean random.

2011-06-21T21:03:00.003+08:00

a little stressed up now. got a MCQ test this Friday and since this would be the last test for this year i want to do my best :) doakan saya rajin, terima kasih. Final lagi less than 4 minggu. minggu depan last kelas ooh makanya minggu depan last jumpa lecturers?! hmm palingg tak suka goodbyes -.- but too busy to feel sad now, i have to many things to do/read/learn whatever. lepas exam baru sedih boleh? haha. sebenarnya tak ada apa nak cakap tapi nak update jugak for the sake of my readers eh eh haha no la, sedih sikit tengok blog lama tak update. sebenarnya banyak kali jugak i cuba update tapiii end up akan delete post sebelum sempat siap-siapa baca sebab hmm lately rasa blog jadi sangat public mungkin akan melukakan ramai pihak makanya i delete post and post kat Tumblr instead hehe. yes, i do have Tumblr! but i'm not ready to share the link ;) i'm getting fatter each day hahaha but i'm too lazy to care. kbye kesian gila siapa-siapa baca ni sangat random dan sangat bosaaaan bye.

p/s : i'm sorry i can't look you in the eyes anymore i heard too many stories about you and it breaks my heart :(

Rules

2011-06-14T23:49:00.004+08:00

both Umi and Abah know that i like someone. er, i mean they know about Alif. when i told them about Alif one year back, they didn't react like i thought they would be. i thought they would be so mad haha since they were quite strict about boys and all. but of course they have so many DONT's -_- for example, they don't allow me to go out for a date malam-malam, we are not allowed to watch movies together (together as in dua orang je) and i tell almost everything to Umi about Alif. tapi i tak pernah la kan nak cerita kalau kitorang gaduh, segan sikit la.. but even if i don't tell Umi would eventually know. you know why? because she is a stalker -_- *baru tahu petang tadi?!* she knows a lot of things about Alif and his whole family and she reads every comment on Alif's Facebook status. like seriously Umiiii haha i am very much impressed.

thank you for the rules, i guess if Abah and Umi don't say NO to anything i maybe forget what my limit is. if i forget, please remind me :)

p/s : i love Amalina Ismail :D
p/s/s : i love Ilmiah she cooks the best Bihun Tomyam ever! :D

paling sedih kalau...

2011-06-11T01:57:00.002+08:00

1. bila call rumah nak cakap dengan Umi banyaaak benda tiba-tiba Abah cakap Umi tengah seronok tengok tv. hmph tak nak la kacau kan, cakap dengan Abah dua tiga minit bila Abah tanya nak cakap dengan Umi ke tak mesti la i cakap tak nak, nak merajuk la macam ni :(

2. bila kena marah sebab small matter. salah sikit pun tak boleh, kan dah mintak maaf :(

3. bila orang janji macam-macam contoh "nanti nak datang rumah!" hmph penat je tunggu tiba-tiba "eh esok la datang" kalau tak nak datang cakap la awal-awal kan senang..

4. bila orang buat salah mintak maaf tapi buat lagi. bila masa mintak maaf cakap itu cakap ini janji tak buat lagi semua tiba-tiba esok buat lagi. baik tak payah mintak maaf :(

5. bila tak ada orang tahu i sedih/merajuk :(

nak menangis la macam ni. benci semua orang. bye.

Hi, i'm a robot.

2011-06-09T23:32:00.007+08:00

everyday i do the same things and sometimes i'm getting bored. i used to complain to Umi how i envy Kakak because she doesn't have to study all these details about human's body and she's in New Zealand instead of the dusty India. and she's going to Sydney for holiday! pft jealous much -_- i told Umi if only i knew what would happen now that i choose to become a doctor, i rather follow everyone's steps (everyone as in Abah, Umi and Kakak) and become a teacher/lecturer too. but Umi said i must be special that God wants me to become a doctor so just be a good one and ikhlaskan hati. head shot sikit HAHA told u my Umi is the greatest! :")

makanya i tak nak fikir menyesal ke apa ke lagi dah baik i belajar rajin-rajin makan sedap-sedap gelak banyak-banyak and sabar menanti kedatangan Ogos! Ogos balik yehaaa!

anyway, Bangalore is getting colder and i am so loving it. sekarang dah boleh pakai t-shirt/cardigan pergi kelas tak payah susah-susah bangun awal nak iron baju kurung haha. now i'm developing a very bad habit nak tahu apa? i selalu tidur lepas subuh since sekarang subuh sangat awal habis solat pun baru pukul lima pagi. awal gila takkan nak belajar pulak kan baik tidur haha dah la sejuk seronoknya peluk Momo bangun-bangun eh eh dah pukul tujuh eh bas pukul 7.45 makanya i selalu tertinggal dan terpaksa naik bas pukul lapan. hmph.

but there's one thing that always makes me excited to go to class everyday. nak tahu apa?

tadaa! haha tiba-tiba jadi geli sikit bye!

p/s : at the end of the video he's complaining about gelas kopi yang makin pendek. how gemok is that hahaha. we both are, btw -_-

what goes around comes around and round and round..

2011-06-07T20:11:00.003+08:00

girls' (and few guys) night out at BBQ Nation :)

i love BBQ Nation! but of course i'm too lazy to blog about it and i am very very lazy to upload pictures and write captions haha one picture is enough how to express my happiness and big tummy. eh?

p/s : i wanted to write about a lot of things but i deleted everything i know i shouldn't express my anger here, it's not appropriate. i pray that YOU who annoy me so much would have a nice friend who can get along with you, forever and always :)

cadaver and excitation

2011-05-31T02:33:00.001+08:00

Lower/upper limbs revision.

Exhausted

2011-05-30T02:18:00.004+08:00

Sunday always drains me out of energy. i have none right now but i need to finish up my assignment. why? because i don't want to waste any single minute anymore. i'll be facing the 3rd IA in two months time. for you info, 3rd IA covers all topics for the whole year. damn, i'm doomed. bye.

oh ya, you guys must be wondering why Sunday? simply because Sunday is the official girls day out slash movies day out. bukan duduk rumah belajar -_-

p/s : my kakak usrah is the sweetest! ;)

ponteng kelas

2011-05-26T21:11:00.004+08:00

i skip classes a lot haha but i would avoid skipping theory class as i can't afford to miss what the teachers are saying. i usually skip Osteology class though because we simply read the textbook together and trust me, they don't ask you anything about bones in the exam so why waste the time HAHA but no more ponteng after this i swear -_- besides Osteology class i skip dissection classes too. don't get me wrong, dissection is super fun but but i hate the heat at the dissection hall and hmm come to think of it, i don't know why i skip those classes -_- maybe i'm just too tired. hm.

anyway skipping classes is not fun anymore. out of sudden i feel so seronok to go to classes. and remember what Umi said the other day about skipping classes? maybe Umi is right, skipping classes won't help you in your exams. i do feel good when i skip classes and have the whole day to study by myself but what about the classes that i don't attend that day? such a waste kan? i come here to learn with the experienced lecturers, not studying by myself and read my friend's notes. it is just not right.

like today, only half the class attend tutorials because we have MCQ tomorrow.

i'm not emotional, i'm just writing some random stuffs that come to my mind. i used to do the same thing and i learnt my lesson so i am not pointing out at anyone. damn, i haven't start reading Biochemistry. wish me luck for tomorrow bye!

of dinner, nice dresses and sweet words

2011-05-22T04:10:00.008+08:00

Si Garang dan Si Cantik heheheheh
(heiii you look kurus in this picture! i mean, we both are hehe)

finally the annual dinner has ended and to be honest, i had a lot of fun :) the theme was "secret garden" where we have to wear flowery dresses and and we had the party in a garden! of course i heard so many complaints about the whole thing but hey you guys, it is not easy to plan a big event like this so please show some appreciations -.-' so here are some random facts about the dinner ;

1. i wore a cream dress with pink flowers, a pink jacket which i only wore twice, maroon pashmina and a pair of GREEN shoes. haha it is really weird to match green with pink/maroon but i bet nobody cares and it looks good in the picture, isn't it? ;P

2. i only spent Rs. 800 for the dress :) thanks to Kakak for the jacket and thanks to Alif for the shoes and and thanks to Sab for the cute cekak. eh semua orang bagi eh eh.

3. the food was hmm not really interesting i mean, it is not really not worth the money i paid. but i finally tasted butter nan! i've been here for almost a year but i never eat prata or nan or whatever they call it and it actually tastes good. maybe i can stop eating beriyani for lunch and eat butter nan instead. or garlic nan. em emmm. guess what we had for drink last night? no juice just plain water. sangat sihat.. -.-'

4. everyone is so glamorous! some of them are very sexaaay haha i was quite shocked actually to see so many long legs. these people make me feel so insecure T__T ada yang macam heavy sangat melampau-lampau dengan make up tebal/tudung lilit-lilit/mask pelik-pelik heh macam-macam. maybe i only complained because i was so simple haha -.-

5. the perfomances were hmm interesting, i must say. someone sang Jar of Hearts! he had a nice voice but his expressions were too weird haha mengumpat eeeiii. i like One Hot Minute's perfomance the most! they were really hot, they sang a mash up Scientist/Pieces and the lightings were so cool they looked like a real band. too bad i'm too lazy to take pictures so you need some imaginations while reading this haha

6. at the end of the dinner, there were fireworks yang turned out to be very scary. rasanya fireworks tu yang murah punya kot sebab bunyi dia pelik and asap tebal melampau. tiba-tiba everyone was ready to run if anything happen haha kelakar -.-'

7. palingg tak best dekat India is we have curfew. yes, a CURFEW. it was only 11 something but we were told to end the dinner and go home. menyampah kan? -.- dah la masa tu nak bagi hadiah untuk pemenang award but everything was so fast we barely had time to clap properly. pft.

oh ya, malam tu i wrote a status saying "I prefer natural beauty and make up is not my thing" and someone said to me;

haha thanks Jeffy, glad someone agrees with my statement ;)

the S word and it bores me

2011-05-19T01:07:00.000+08:00

sensitive sensitiveeee, tak faham -.-'

bye.

Cranky

2011-05-17T20:47:00.004+08:00

yes, i am very cranky when i'm hot. hot as in panas berpeluh-peluh. Bangalore sekarang sangaaaaat panas! panas lebih kurang Malaysia je sebenarnya TAPI kat sini kan panas dan kering tambah lagi dengan debu-debu dengan bunyi bisingnya oooemmmmgeeee rasa macam nak marah semua orang! eh? -.-'

oh ya, sekarang kitorang dissect pelvis! kitorang punya cadaver perempuan makanya boleh la kan nak kenal-kenal mana satu uterus mana satu vagina. cadaver kitorang kan kan selalu sangat buat kitorang macam "Ooooh" okay contohnya, tadi Dr Rao cakap "Her uterus is very small, i think she never had any child" cepat semua ooooh sekarang! lagi satuuu, dia punya uterine tube/fallopian tube kena ikat! macam wow bila tengok sendiri semua tu walhal benda tu sangat common. hmm bila Dr Rao nak ajar male reproductive organs pulak ni, orang lain dah habis belajar kot.. -.-'

number 10 is the uterus.

semalam ada junior kepada junior i (macam super junior kot?) PM i kat Fb dia cakap "Akak dah lama saya add cepat la approve" haha comel taaak, makanya i terus approve. selalunya i ignore semua friend requests kecuali satu dua yang kalau tak approve macam melampau pulak kan anyway we talked about a lot of things, cerita pasal dia dapat KMB tapi sebenarnya kalau boleh dia nak ikut jejak langkah i datang Bangalore HAHA then cerita pasal basically the only thing we have in common la kan, which is Sester. dia tanya i "Akak dulu top 3 sekolah kan?" i was like, eh rasanya macam taaaak haha. come on, i forgot about all those little things all i can remember is i never had the chance to beat Tan Sheau Weiiii ;) and he asked me was i a prefect back in Sester? i said no, i am not a prefect but i am the trendsetter hehehehe *quoted from Sir Aimin* poyoooo haha trendsetter la sangat kan -.-'

ehem. anyway, i am very much hoping that winter (tak ada salji harap maklum) will come fast. bye!

Monday blues

2011-05-16T19:49:00.003+08:00

last night i slept early. i don't know why i was very tired but i couldn't keep my eyes open and all i could think of is how warm my bed and Momo are. so i woke up early this morning and i was excited to go to class. suddenly we had to go to another class and my mood was spoiled. tiba-tiba jadi mengantuk -.-' palinggg tak suka kalau mengantuk dalam kelas i think it is such a waste to sleep in class and why am i talking about these little things? -.-' anyway, what i'm saying is i hate Monday HAHA i love weekend sooo much i am having a very bad Monday blues. thank God dissection is always fun with Dr Rao :)

next week we'll be having IMS annual dinner. at first i refused to go because i always look selekeh during dinners and i'm pretty sure this time around there won't be much difference -.-' but Alif insisted me to go and kesian pulak kan kalau biar dia pergi sorang-sorang.. bila tengok orang lain macam beria-ria beli dress cantik-cantik make up bagai sampai beribu-ribu rupee tiba-tiba i jadi macam excited sikit haha i spent some money on make ups percaya taaaaak i yang paling selekeh dalam dunia buang duit untuk make up?! i'm finally a woman! haha -.-'

tapiiii macam sayang duit nak beli baju lagiiii *kedekut* macam mana niii nak recycle baju dinner tahun lepas boleh tak? alaa bukan orang perasan pun i pakai apa T____T okay bye nak pergi skipping :)

Umi cakap,

2011-05-11T21:07:00.005+08:00

...dalam kelas kena dengar betul-betul apa cikgu cakap, tak semestinya kalau apa yang cikgu ajar padahal dah ada dalam buku tak payah dengar pun tak apa tak pergi kelas pun tak apa. hmm nasib baik Umi ingatkan kalau tak mesti i lupa.

Dr Rao sangat hebat, kalau kamu dengar betul-betul apa yang dia ajar masa dissect kamu akan ingat 80% daripada apa yang dia ajar (walaupun kadang-kadang macam keliru sikit), serius.

Umi cakap lagi, kalau tak dapat apa yang kita nak tak boleh menangis je tapi kena berusaha lebih lagi. sikit je lagii. kena kejar balik apa yang terlepas, doakan! :)

p/s : get well soon Umi, rindunya :(

girls' day out

2011-05-09T06:58:00.003+08:00

Linda, me and Mira :)

i had a nice day with these two Sengets haha, too bad Haunted (a Hindi movie) doesn't have English subtitles! pft. we usually hang out and watch horror movies together now i have to watch Thor, which is definitely not my kind of movie. i'm a hopeless romantic, i don't watch epic movies! but this is all Mira's fault suddenly she becomes the boss and paksa us to see Thor. i wanted to watch Water for Elephants it sounds like a decent movie for a decent girl like me haha. benci ah Mira -.- nasib baik Thor hott *both Linda and Mira can't stop drooling over him ish ish ish..

we did some shopping too, guess how much i spent in Mark&Spencer? T__T

bye!

p/s : i am so in love with the blouse i wore today hehe

The overall result

2011-05-06T20:33:00.004+08:00

i've been using Sabrina's laptop or Mia's or basically any free laptop that i could find for almost a month now. i don't know what's happening to my laptop i'm too lazy to figure out or to fix her haha i'm too lazy to do anything T.T

tadi tengahari lepas kelas Embryology Dr kulkarni cakap "Since you guys are too eager to see your results please go and see your marks...." well, i am not one of those guys who are so excited to know the results i'm just not confident enough. and yes, i did not score the highest mark like i did in the previous IA and i am a little disappointed. A LITTLE, sebab between the first and second IA only the highest marks will be recorded and summed up together with the third IA and the Professional Exam. nasib baik. i got only 45 out of 60 but Alif said i should be thankful, bukan merungut macam ni hehe. i'm not merungut btw, i'm just sharing the news with you guys -.-'

MUST TRY HARDER NEXT TIMEEEE.

anyway, for Biochemistry i scored 47 out of 60 which is a little lower than i'm expected. someone used to say, in order to be the best you must work the hardest and EXPECT THE LEAST which i don't usually do -.- Umi said i'm too confident hish this is not good, totally not good. MUST EXPECT THE LEAST NEXT TIMEEEEE. i think the lecturers are very strict in marking the papers this time around. maybe because the questions are easy and they don't want us to take Biochemistry for granted (which i always do). well, lesson learnt T.T

for Physiology, i think i have mentioned about it in the last last post. overall, i think i should work harder i have to beat Iz** and **** and ****** and hahaha simply said i want to be the best :)

i sound so boring, i bet you guys must be bored with my boring words. but thank you for reading haha. bye! oh lupa, tahniah ye kepada semua kawan-kawan saya yang sangat pandai let's rock the next IA!

Sedih

2011-05-04T02:13:00.005+08:00

i did something em immature today, i cried in front of Ama, Linda and Mira. okay sangat tak perlu berhingus-hingus depan orang -.-' well its not necessary for me to explain why did i cry but please note that i don't usually cry in front of people. i mean not now when i'm a grown up woman who will be twenty years old in eight months time. gosh, i shouldn't say that out loud now i feel so old T__T

now i feel better :)

PROCRASTINATE

2011-05-01T12:11:00.002+08:00

...is me -.-' come on maaaan, it is not good to procrastinate i have to start my mission by tomorrow! but i'm too L.....A......Z....Y......... whatever happens to me? T___T mood cuti macam tak habis lagi haha boleh tak, walhal dah seminggu start kelas. hish cepat rajin!

ada benda sangat menarik nak cerita, it's about a married Kakak and her advices HAHAHAHA menarik kan? but will update later, i'm too lazy to think in English haha bye!

Suprised :O

2011-04-28T22:01:00.002+08:00

so the accreditation thing is finally over and life goes back to normal and...we got our results for Physiology! i was not expecting to get the result this early but anyway thank god i decided to not to skip the class -.- tahu tak, i HATE afternoon classes no matter how interesting the subjects are. i'd be too sleepy to understand anything. macam kelas Biochemistry tadi, i slept for 45 minutes out of 60 minutes lecture T__T

now back to the main point, i was really suprised to see my mark. seriously i was not aiming high or whatever i just thought "ya Allah tolong la bagi at least better than the last paper" sebab last time i only scored 43 out of 60 which is not good -.- Alhamdulillah He gave me 7 extra marks hehehe :") bersyukur gila tak tahu nak cakap macam mana rasa macam nak menangis emosional gila dapat 50 pun nak menangis sila grow up -.-'

eh esok cuti! i think it got something to do with Good Friday or whatever, well well another good suprise for me :) since Dr Suresh let us out early just now i paksa Mira and Lynda makan sundae dekat Coffe A Day! i had the yummiest chicken tikka sandwich oh i never knew chicken tikka can be that intriguing! MUST HAVE IT AGAIIINNNNN T.T i kinda forgot how fun it can be to hang out with girls haha another point to keep in mind MUST GO OUT FOR A MOVIE WITH THE GIRLS NEXT WEEK! and tomorrow is housemates-day out! we're having lunch in somewhere in MG Road (my favourite place in Bangalore so far) ooh i can't wait! please remind me to upload the pictures tomorrow..

and dear Nur Amanina, happy birthday darling :)

OhSoExcited!

2011-04-26T20:39:00.003+08:00

boleh tak nak bangga (bukan riak) sebab dah berjaya poskan sari Emi TANPA BANTUAN SIAPA-SIAPA?! *mengabaikan pertolongan Sab balut kotak dengan kain putih (benciiii kalau nak pos kat India kena guna kain putih pelik kan?!), Alif yang baik tolong ikatkan tali dan sekian-sekian yang bagi pinjam gunting marker etc. oh bahagianya berjaya berdikari :')

i know i'm too kind i sell those sarees at very very low prices (compared to my friends) but this whole business thing is so much fun! tolong la beli sari dengan i lagi haha i jual murah gila kott. thanks Emi sebab jadi first customer yang memerlukan khidmat pos!! :")

and if there are readers who are interested about Saree please add me kat Facebook :)

HB

2011-04-24T15:48:00.003+08:00

my dear friend Hafizatul Solehah whom i miss so much, HAPPY BIRTHDAY sayang! ehem, sebenarnya lewat satu hari hehe. belajar rajin-rajin ye? :)

Saree-hunting

2011-04-22T00:02:00.004+08:00

wow this is interesting!

...but we Malays don't wear Saree like that, we make it as baju kurung :)

anyway today we went to hunt for sarees! oh btw, WE in my posts stand for me and Alif, just so you guys know :) kisahnya bermula bila Emi a friend of mine back in Sester asked me to buy her Sarees. hish i apa lagiii peluang bisnes kot hehe lagipun i love Saree hunting! seronok. orang India ni bab-bab jual kain haa bukan main lagi, semangat. biasanya kita masuk je kedai terus pekerja-pekerja diorang serbu "Yes Mam can i help, you want fancy Saree?" *contoh. lepas tu habis satu satu dia keluarkan sari dia bentang besar-besar depan kita sambil cerita itu ini. mana i tak tergoda T__T selalunya kalau nak buat baju kurung kita guna creb silk (macam tu kot ejaannya) kain tak panas. tak pun chiffon, tapi Umi cakap chiffon leceh nak kena lining bagai. oh, sangat la rambang mata nak beli tadiii.

mula-mula kitorang pergi Commercial Street (CS) ingat nak settle semua kat situ tapi eh terbeli benda lain pulak, sari tak terbeli pulak -.-' dalam sejam lepas tu baru la dah cuak eh tak beli sari lagi eh eh lepas tu pergi Chickpet (macam tu kot ejaannya haha) which is jauh sikit daripada CS kena bayar auto dalam Rs. 80 tapi pakcik auto si penip* tiba-tiba mintak bayar lebih oh geramnya.. hmph abaikan tak nak spoil mood cakap sal pakcik auto sengal -.-' sampai he Chickpet terus redah semua kedai nak cari sari murah dan cantik. malang sekali i ni sangat la cerewet orangnya, dalam masa sejam sempat beli 2 sari je haha.

balik rumah terus Skype dengan Emi sebab nak tunjuk sari haha semangat tak semangat -.- esok pergi Chickpet lagiiii oh seronoknya :)

btw tadi masak ayam kurma dengan jagung rebus! sedap. and thanks Pidot belikan murtabak made in Malaysia (beli dekat Chennai ada kedai Pelita jual makanan Malaysia) sedap gila terubat sikit rindu kat Malaysia :")

#Wednedsay

2011-04-20T23:12:00.007+08:00

hari ni mandikan Momo si gemok! sekarang bau macam baby :)

enjoying the sun :)

T.T

2011-04-20T13:17:00.003+08:00

i just need some nice words, not your anger or your harsh words. today i want to hate you but tomorrow i'll be fine. bye.

Sesat

2011-04-19T22:51:00.003+08:00

today i went to Garuda Mall which is situated somewhere in MG Road (MG stands for Mahatma Gandhi baru tahu!), everyone said it is a boring mall but i am a very stubborn person i have to see it myself then i'll agree with people's opinion. so it IS a boring mall maybe i'll find it very interesting if i can spend my whole allowance in one day. why? because Garuda is filled with branded stores like MNG, M&S yada yadaa benci i tak sanggup habiskan Rs. 4200 untuk satu long dress yang sangat cantik kalau pakai boleh jadi princess satu hari oh benciiii T.T

on the way back home, we got lost. like seriously we got lost in India. it is seriously scary because it is not our hometown where we can guess where are we heading because we can read the signboards. but not in India. CAN YOU GUESS HOW SCARED I WAS? thankyou. hmph.

macam ni ceritanya, it was raining when we were on our way back home. at first it was quite romantic because raining is a little unusual in India and you know auto, it got no doors or whatever so you can feel the splashes haha faham tak seronok kot bila auto jalan laju-laju it got so cold rasa macam main salji HAHAHA *exaggerate -.- so i guess you guys understand how romantic it was, TOO BAD the rain started to be so heavy and tiba-tiba pulak banjir -.-' bila banjir, pakcik-pakcik auto yang sangat la selfish nak MAM*** mesti la tak nak harung air kononnya nanti auto rosak makanya kitorang kena tinggal tepi jalan dengan alasan auto rosak WHATTHE............ -.-'

masa tu macam tak jauh dah so bajet boleh jalan kalau nasib baik ada auto berhenti (selalunya nak cari auto sangat la senang!). jalan punya jalan tak ada pulak auto oh bencinya fine masa ni sabar lagi so jalan lagiiii. it was quite romantic haha actually but it was scary too and it was funny too eh? -.-'

okay to make story short we made it to Ramaiyah (bayangkan kena jalan sampai Ramaiyah T.T) and we found abother auto to take us home. gila tak larat dah nak jalan balik rumah. kalau jalan it would take another 45 minutes (heh dah pernah buat eksperimen jalan kaki daripada Ramaiyah ke Gokula) thank God ada auto kan. tapi macam biasa la pakcik auto kan sangat mengada-ngada kitorang kena bayar Rs. 50 oh bencinya (biasanya Rs. 30!!) tapi sebab tak larat dah fikir nak balik rumah je bayar je la -.-'

konklusinya hari ni benci semua pakcik auto kat India tapi nasib baik beli satu bracelet sangat cantik and one black shirt hehe.

esok rehat dulu tak nak keluar shopping dah cuma keluar sekejap nak temankan Mia buat spec baru and i ada appointment dengan a dermatologist! nak try buat facial treatment hehe since Umi doesn't allow me to do braces i decided to fix my face haha instead of my teeth. bukan la fix as in nak cocok Botox ke apa -.-' tapi nak hilangkan scars yada yadaa nak cuba je pun. kalau okay i cerita lagi okay? :)

okay bye!

p/s : please ignore the spelling mistakes i'm too lazy to edit.

Sometimes

2011-04-19T00:10:00.001+08:00

#Monday

2011-04-18T13:24:00.002+08:00

i slept for 11 hours, when i woke up this morning my whole body hurt. and this is one of the reasons why i love holiday so much :)

Pasar

2011-04-17T13:53:00.004+08:00

tadi bangun pagi nampak Mia siap-siap nak keluar. bila tanya nak pergi mana katanya nak pergi pasar. eeiii nak ikut! dah lama gila tak pergi pasar and selalu seronok (walaupun geli) nak pergi pasar sebab suka tengok keadaan pasar kat India yang selalu sibuk dengan orang jerit-jerit bising-bising haha itu pun seronok ke -.- makanya tak mandi tak apa terus tukar baju ikut Mia pergi.

ada penemuan baru kat pasar! rupa-rupanya kat pasar ada jual bekas makanan as in tupperware yang murah gila selama ni beli harga 3 kali ganda bencinya -.- tadi beli banyaaak barang dapur sebab ada orang nak belajar masak seronoknya :)

hari ni nak jalan-jalan lagiiii! hari ni nak pergi MG Road kot. MG Road ni macam bandar sikit, kat sini la ada Hard Rock Cafe Bangalore. i pernah pergi sekali beli 2 tshirt Hard Rock Cafe hehe i kan pantang ada duit mesti nak membazir. er. anyway, kat MG Road nanti tak sure nak buat apa rasanya nak explore je sebab orang cakap situ banyak kedai and banyak tempat makan best. kalau berkesempatan nak pergi makan Nando's! rindu gila makan Nando's. Nando's kat sini pun baru je bukak sebenarnya. hm aim hari ni nak beli handbag rasanya tak beli baju kot sebab em sebab nak berbelanja secara berhemah sikit nak beli baju dekat CS je, kat CS murah gila kot :)

sebelum keluar nak singgah McD dulu nak makan filet-o-fish haha gila bosan TAPIII filet-o-fish kat sini sedap kalau kat Malaysia macam tak sedap sangat. btw semalam i dah delete banyak gila older posts. i was too childish, i'm growing up now ain't i? :)

bye.

Shop till you drop

2011-04-16T21:26:00.004+08:00

don't ask how much money i have spent today in Mantri Mall i just can't help grabbing all those stuff i even bought myself a pair of shades (the rim is black and red haha) to replace the broken one. yeaaah i'm so clumsy i broke my shades on the way back to Bangalore in Chennai trip last month -.- anyway just forget about the past since i'm actually glad i broke it because i always wanted to buy new shades haha benci tak perangai macam ni kerja habiskan duit je -.-'

oh lupa nak cerita! sekarang kan my college is turning very IPTA-ish (haha) we have to wear formal attire to classes. hm. dah la i jenis suka bangun lambat malas nak iron baju kurung terus grab jeans dengan tshirt tudung hitam pergi kelas. now we have to start wearing a proper attire as doctors. so i have another reason to shop haha i bought a purple shirt and a pair of formal pants. i don't know what people call it is it pants or hm forget it no one cares anyway -.- seronoknya ada sebab nak shopping selalu :) *but i still don't agree wearing formal clothes to classes T__T

esok nak shopping lagi yeay! tolong la nasihatkan i jangan boros sangat. terima kasih. okay bye nak pergi makan rumah Kak Farah :)

i look ugly but happy :)

Clumsy

2011-04-15T22:52:00.003+08:00

i am so dead clumsy. tahu apa i buat? i broke Kak Ain's housemate's (whom i'm not sure what's her name is) keychain which "kawan i belikan dekat Spain!" T.T mintak maaf ye Kakak i memang si clumsy yang suka rosakkan barang orang terutama yang mahal or berharga. the other day i rosakkan bracelet roommate i yang kawan dia belikan dari Egypt. hebat kan i? T____T

oh ya, i paling tak suka bukak blog yang ada lagu sebab kacau playlist i. everytime nak blogwalking je kena mute sound Zzzz bosannya *still itu blog diorang suka hati diorang la kan -.-'

and bye Sabrina if you're reading this. have fun in Malaysia i envy you nak balik jugak benciiii.

exam dah habis :)

2011-04-15T17:22:00.003+08:00

percaya tak exam dah habis? maknanya dah tak payah stress-stress menangis sebab takut tak boleh jawab lagi la? eh tak jugak, lagi 4 bulan stress ni akan berganda sebab semua portions yang i belajar untuk setahun akan masuk exam. gila. okay malas fikir pasal tu lagi -.-'

overall exam macam okay. em Biochemistry tak expect soalan yang tak susah keluar. nasib baik :) tapi nanti dah dapat result kita cerita lagi baru seronok haa kang tiba-tiba tak dapat elok padan muka. eh sepatutnya hari ni dapat semua results tapi lecturers sibuk kot macam next next week baru dapat. sekarang kolej tengah sibuk hal-hal accreditation bagai panjang sangat cerita malas nak cerita haha -.-

i have the whole week to be wasted and and MARA has been so generous with the allowance faham tak perasaan rasa macam nak habiskan semua duit nak beli sepuluh baju dalam masa sejam HAHAHA haa itu la yang i nak buat sepanjang cuti niii. *sebenarnya dalam holiday planner sekarang sepatutnya tengah buang duit kat Mantri Mall tapi tiba-tiba ada masalah sikit terpaksa update blog haha* i rasa i sangaaat boros kadang-kadang kan kaaan rasa macam duit Rupee tu bukan macam duit real sebab suka hati je habiskan macam tu. shh ini rahsia jangan cakap dekat orang -.-' ini la contoh tak baik jangan jadi macam i okay, bila habis je cuti i akan berubah. betul.

i miss Auni and the kittens!! hm Kak Ain tolong la pergi holiday lagiii i nak jaga Auni lagi T.T Auni baik sebab selalu ada masa i sedih tapi tak buat apa-apa la dia cuma pandang yang tak berkelip bila i menangis depan dia haha mesti dia pelik tiba-tiba menangis. Auniiiiiii rinduuuuu :(

the Diva -.-'

one of the kittens tapi tak boleh make out siapa dari belakang haha

okay holiday has started jom buang masa buang duit bye.

OhVeryRandom

2011-04-08T07:03:00.002+08:00

zero confidence T.T
semua orang tahu banyak benda.
macam mana niiii?

how i meet your mother

2011-04-04T01:33:00.002+08:00

tadi masa nak pergi bagi makan Auni i terserempak dengan Af** dengan parents dia. yeah his parents are here in Bangalore *dengkiiii -.-' anywaaay, buah hati Af** pun ada sekali. comel gila macam dah rasmi satu keluarga tolong la kahwin cepat haha. it reminds me *ececeh nak jugak kaaan* macam mana i jumpa parents Alif satu masa dahulu (seriously it is such a long time ago, masa kitorang dekat Msu Shah Alam lagi). pelik kan tiba-tiba semangat nak cerita padahal cerita dah lama dah la tak habis baca Heart lagi tapi nak jugak cerita haha.

masa tu kelakaaar sangat sebab macam tak terfikir pun nak jumpa apatah lagi nak pergi cafe sama-sama kan. i was so shy i barely spoke a word HAHA his Mom said i;m such a sweet girl because i spoke softly and smiled a lot. haha boleh taaakkk makcik saya sebenarnya segan bukannya pemalu seperti yang makcik fikir T.T what if what if WHAT IF his Mom gets to know the real LOUD me and she doesn't like me anymore? T____T okay apahal tiba-tiba emo -.-'

tiba-tiba rasa segan nak cerita detail okay la jom sambung belajar Heart bye!

p/s : can't wait for holiday to come! i have lotsa plans to be done in a week yeaaay x) oh btw notice my overexcited tone? that's because Umi and Abah just called hehehehe the feeling is so much different to when i'm the one who call :)

10 days to go

2011-04-01T21:12:00.002+08:00

i think i am not good at keeping friends. i always end up messing things up. i miss hanging out with some people who suddenly become so cold.....

gosh what's with the miserable intro -_-'

yes YES YES!!! lagi 10 hari nak exam. benci benciiii benci exam kalau rasa macam tak habis baca lagi. kalau dah habis baca pun rasa macam tak pernah baca lagi. hmph. sangat stress, tapi sebab semua orang rasa benda sama malas la kan nak bising-bising tak habis baca banyak nak kena baca yada yadaa heh semua sama je. just pretend to be cool, that's better :)

exam kali ni macam melampau-lampau nak kena cover. specifically Anatomy la. Physiology rasanya relax sikit sebab ada 4 systems je yang nak kena "mug up" (haha ini perkataan favourite Dr Suresh dia selalu cakap kitorang "xerox machine" yang suka "mug up" as ini mesin fotostet yang suka hafaaaal je semua yang ada dalam buku). ada satu tips untuk dapat bagus dalam Physiology (last time i dapat sikit sangat okay so ini macam tips untuk diri sendiri). kena baca dan faham dan BUAT AYAT SENDIRI tak aci tulis satu-satu apa yang ada dalam buku. susah kan? hmm tapi boleh buat kottt, insyaAllah. makanya semua yang membaca ni kena doakan kita! terimakasih :)

untuk Anatomy kitorang kena cover bab Head and Neck yang merangkumi (perkataan nak skema je haha) segala nerves dan vessels yang berbelit-belit lidah nak sebut. and and kena cover bab Brain dan segala fibres dan nuclei yang ada dalam Brain -_-' and and and Embryology Osteology Hostology bagaiiii ya Allah tak boleh lagi banyak ke yang nak kena baca? hm thank God it is my favourite subject so i have no regret spending so much times memorizing all the Greeks and Latins :) haa sekali lagi tolong la doakan kitaaa! Kakak Nasyitah pernah cakap doa tu makbul bila orang lain yang doakan untuk kita..

oh Biochemistry lagi la gila sebab i macam tak berapa nak suka sangat Biochemistry apatah lagi bila berlambak-lambak reactions yang nak kena ingat. ini bukan mengeluh tapi mengadu nasib -_-' hish banyak lagi nak kena belajar..

haha stress tak bila baca ni? padan muka siapa suruh baca sekarang jom stress sama-sama :)

good luck everyone let's rock the second IA yeaaaah! bye.

p/s : abaikan kalau ada salah eja sebab malas nak baca balik and edit -_-'

roller coaster (of emotions)

2011-03-29T21:28:00.005+08:00

okay tadi i dah tulis gila panjang tapi tiba-tiba terpadam. benci. malas nak tulis balik bye.

of excitement and frustration

2011-03-23T04:03:00.004+08:00

Sheraton Chennai, good memories :)

i am truly frustrated today. but i am a big girl i should not make a big fuss out of it. i just need some more patience and that would solve everything. and oh, some money too. well if money is your priority, i can handle that. Rs 7000 is nothing you know (compared to a helping hand).

and i'm getting immune by your harsh words and your pride.

p/s : pft i can be so emo sometimes -.-'

sedih sikit -.-

2011-03-19T21:35:00.003+08:00

this blog is dying, seriously. i wish i have more time to spend with Loud. but i have too many books to be read and i have to excel in the upcoming second IA. come on, i won't let Iz** win this time. cukup la kalah 1 markah dalam mcq Anatomy. eh eh niat dah lari sikit err, get back on track please. belajar kan kerana Allah :)

anyway! i had so much fun last night spending the whole night with Auni. for those who don't know, i'm babysitting Auni and her 3 kittens for three weeks starting from yesterday. Auni is a Persian cat and she's a diva. sombong gila. kena cakap dia cantik sepuluh kali baru dia nak pandang. serius -.-' senang je kerja i, tiap-tiap petang i kena bagi makan bagi minum, main-main sikit.. itu je. tapi semalam i temankan Auni siap bermalam kat sana lagi hehe. mula-mula Auni macam tak suka i sangat heh ta[i (baru perasan salah eja tapi malas nak tukar haha) sekarang macam dah okay kot? hmph susah.

regarding to title, tahu kenapa i sedih sikit? hmm macam ni. i'm not really good at mingling with seniors but there are certain ones that i like very much like my Kakak Usrah and few others. one of them is hmm let's call her Kakak. so Kakak is getting married in two weeks time. she's in her second year and she's marrying one his batch mate haha comel kan :) the thing is, lepas dia kahwin nanti mesti dia dah tak jadi macam dulu.. Kakak selalu masak untuk kitorang! heh lepas ni mesti masak untuk suami dia je kan -.- rasa macam kehilangan. okay emo gila but this is the truth! anyway i wish them all the best, kahwin elok-elok ye T.T

okay nak pergi belajar babaiii :)

HURRY

2011-03-18T21:21:00.000+08:00

nanti update busy la bye.

Dalam hati.

2011-03-13T22:31:00.003+08:00

meet Auniii :)

1. hari tu ada orang cakap kat i "eh kamu sedih ke, kenapa tak nampak macam sedih pun? sedih main-main ke?" well, i don't tell people when i'm sad. kalau happy baru la boleh share :) truth is, my heart is crushed into thousand pieces. only Allah knows how heartbroken i am. and He is always there. Alhamdulillah :)

2. i went to Chennai for two days for some political stuff. jumpa TPM but i barely listen to a word he was saying because i was too absorbed with the great dinner HAHA. makan serius sedap, especially the main dish. too bad tak sempat habis makan sebab asyik borak dengan kawan baru dari Chennai. and i met Nicole Ann David there! tapi nampak belakang je la -.-' ada match kat sana kot tapi dengar cerita team Malaysia dah kalah? eh?

3. finally i met Auniiii and the 3 babies! oh oh sayangnya kat diorang hanya Allah yang tahu :') Kak Ain sangat baik, dia bagi i jaga Auni, Yaya, Dedel dengan Denden for 3 weeks! baik kan? Abah cakap tak susah ke nanti nak ulang alik bagi kucing makan tapii these cats soothe me. they make me feel out of the world, serius. tak kisah la susah sikit. they are too charming to resist! insyaAllah tak kacau study. kan? doakan! :)

4. it is always nice to know that there are people who care when you're down. thank you :)

bye!

of Didiey Zakaria

11

7

HURRY

random things that make me happy :D

WS #4

hewhewhew

WS #3

made my day :D

20

:B

too lazy to recap but made a conclusion

WS #2

dislikeee

rainbow cake

WS#1

drowsy

RANDOM

The Golden Triangle

*sigh*

#1 : Mangalore

CUTIIIIII

in my head #1

Sun-lazy-day

being human

Eiduladha

thank YOU

Toby!

Pending

:(

weekend at Nandi Hills

weekend yeaaay!

Stress

back in India

Looking back

little sissy

ramblings

Raya at my house

Kbye

comelnya -_-

first time beli baju online sebab tu seronok heheh

MAHU

appointment with doctor

macam dulu-dulu

Duo

my Eid

the magic word and free vouchers

Crave

1 moreee!

saya pun ada la! :D

eh, lupa nak wish happy fasting!

Moving out

Results

Awkward

Apology

of exams and Harry Potter

my middle name is Careless

tiba-tiba

home

Wordless Saturday

Study week

Tanda malas layan

Suka tidur

Rabdom. Eh, i mean random.

Rules

paling sedih kalau...

Hi, i'm a robot.

what goes around comes around and round and round..

cadaver and excitation

Exhausted

ponteng kelas

of dinner, nice dresses and sweet words

the S word and it bores me

Cranky

Monday blues

Umi cakap,

girls' day out

The overall result

Sedih

PROCRASTINATE

sigh